Hey @bla-ckcat,
I would like to welcome you to the forums 🙂 Thank you for sharing your story.
It takes a lot of courage to open up about the challenges you're facing as a caregiver, especially when it involves caring for a loved one with severe depression.
It sounds like you're in a really tough situation, and I can empathise with the overwhelming feelings of distress and frustration. Balancing your own life while also being the primary caregiver for your mum is undoubtedly challenging, and it's completely understandable that you're feeling the strain. I'm sorry to hear that your mum's condition hasn't improved much despite being inpatient for four months.
It's natural to worry about her well-being, especially as she prepares to transition back home. However, it's important to remember that you can't shoulder all of the responsibility on your own. Taking a break and seeking other supports could be a necessary step for both your well-being and your mum's. It's okay to prioritise your own mental and emotional health, even if it means temporarily stepping back from your caregiving role. Have you considered discussing your concerns with your mom's healthcare providers? Head to Health is a nationwide service that can help with navigating the system and accessing the right support. They may be able to offer guidance and resources to help support your mum's transition back home and alleviate some of your worries. Remember that taking care of yourself is not selfish—it's essential for maintaining your own health and well-being. You can't pour from an empty cup, and it's okay to ask for help when you need it. You're not alone in this journey, and there are people who understand and can offer support along the way. Take care of yourself, and know that you're doing the best you can in a difficult situation. ❤️
https://www.headtohealth.gov.au/
