Hi @Manda3
It is so great that you are surrounded by a great support network and also have medical support. It's these days while you are waiting to start feeling better that are the most difficult and feel like they will never end.
These are the days to take care of yourself, sleep if you need, cry. I think I filled the time with a lot of netflix and things to keep my mind busy. It's true that eventually you may need to face things but when you are in this state you are best to just allow yourself time to recover and breathe.
Mindfulness things I've learned recently, are a way to help pass the time, but when I was in a heightened state, I struggle to concentrate or really enjoy anything. It's hard to feel good when it feels like life is a constant struggle and there is a constant feeling of panic or impending doom.
Reaching out to forum's like this is a great start, and shows your strength even when you feel hopeless. You are not alone in how you feel and the only advice I tell myself during that time is that these feelings are temporary and these awful moments will pass.
You have survived all your worst days and you are in a new phase where you get to recover and feel better. I wish you all the best on your journey forward, there are better times ahead.