Hi there, I’m so sorry for your hardships. You are a wonderful mother and deserve to have balance in life. Being treated for depression from such a young age must often leave you feeling lost for answers when you’ve been fighting for so long, I can’t imagine juggling personal, family and work life all under one roof. You are strong, and you are more than deserving of love and support. Your health is so very important, be it mental, physical or emotional they all have a role in how you feel each day. I wonder if setting boundaries around work to help balance the stress and time consumption of work is possible? I’m not sure if there is anybody else in the picture but finding help from family or financially may give you some breathing room. Please, remember to take care of your own health too. If you need time away you can do that, and using strategies and techniques to ease the angst in times of distress can be what keeps you from feeling like you’ll fall right off the edge when overwhelmed. Self care, balance, and emotional regulation might all be things to assist you in your anxieties. I’m not telling you what to do at all, but gentle suggestions never hurt 🙂
if you’re not already, therapy is going to be an opportunity for you to explore the ways you can maximise your mental wellbeing through motherhood and the battles worklife will throw into the mix. So proud of you for reaching out for help and using places like this to vent. You are worthy, and if it feels like nobody hears you I do. Be strong 💙