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TW: Being a survivor 5 years on.

The-red-centaurSenior Contributor18 Feb 2024, 6:11 pm AEDT

TW: Being a survivor 5 years on.

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Today is 5 years since I was attacked and sexually assaulted. I know I survived it but I don't feel like a survivor.

Today is 5 years since I was attacked and sexually assaulted. I know I survived it but I don't feel like a survivor.

I feel beaten and broken like I was that night. I feel like I deserve where my life has ended up.

I know I'm trying to take control of my life and change my situation. But days like today it hard not to regress into the despair and helplessness.

On the first anniversary I got rhe word survivor as a tattoo....I'm a liar. I can't. I'm just a miserable victim of a drunk guy who took advantage of a stupid person alone at night.

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tymeModerator21 Feb 2024, 7:44 pm AEDT

Re: TW: Being a survivor 5 years on.

Your business sounds so exciting! @The-red-centaur I can't wait to hear more about it.

Maybe people could even order paintings from you?

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor21 Feb 2024, 8:53 pm AEDT

Re: TW: Being a survivor 5 years on.

@tyme I haven't set up a website yet. People could possibly order through my Facebook or instagram. But I agent got that far yet.

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tymeModerator21 Feb 2024, 9:01 pm AEDT

Re: TW: Being a survivor 5 years on.

Wow! I didn't realise it was that big! Good on you! It really gives you something to work on. So proud of you @The-red-centaur 🙂

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