Eden1919Senior Contributor
Not sure what to do
I feel really agitated and unsettled and I am trying my best to manage everything but I don’t feel good and I have tried everything I can think of and nothing is really working and it is weird I was getting frustrated with my psychologist yesterday and I have no idea why like she didn’t do anything except ask questions which is fine I just kept feeling this weird feeling and like I wanted to yell at her I didn’t of course but yeah idk. I just feel so weird and not right and I think it is my meds because I was feeling good until I had my last dose and then like a day later I felt like shit and this has happened before with the meds so it is definitely them but no one believes me when I tell them the meds make me feel shitty.
also the other thing that is bothering me is that everything feels wrong like and looks wrong I don’t know how to explain it properly but everything just doesn’t look right and also the demon people who live in this world have been getting into my head a lot recently like they can read my mind and they put thoughts in my head that aren’t mine and also take my own thoughts out of my head and it is really frustrating and uncomfortable and I just want them to stop but they won’t stop because they are waiting for me to give them what they want and I can’t do that or I will perish and it is complicated but I am tired and they are making me tired so I can’t fight them they are doing so many things to me to weaken me so I can’t fight them and I am trying to not give in but it is hard even now they are trying to get into my head because I am not playing their game the way they want me too I am just tired of fighting so hard all the time just to stay afloat. I don’t know what to do anymore I tried playing their game but that doesn’t seem to be working anymore maybe I need to try harder to convince them idk I really don’t and what if I do all of that and it just gets worse ugh why is everything so hard.
