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hello @Former-Member

nice to see you on here.

son situation worse. no contact from him or mental health team in either state. spent most of yesterday on phone ringing interstate public hospital psychiatric ward, tried ringing cat team there phone message only, interstate police. private mental health clinic. all passing the buck. cant get through to mental health helpline from interstate.

i told the police about the cat team no just a recording. i know the office was burnt down last week but there should be a diverted number it is supposed to be a 24 hour service. the police told me to ring the public hospital psychiatric ward. they didnt want to know about it, got passed on to another staff member whom i could hardly understand. husband walked in to hear me telling the person that the police had told me to ring them and they need to follow up. she of course said not their job. so as usual it is not the job of the person you speak to in mental health situation. they all have their own jobs in their own offices within their own little teams and have forgotten that they are employed to help, support people with mental health issues and supportive families. the very supportive families who burn out and no longer have the energy to help. then you hear conversations within the hospital that the families dont care and dont help.

so i have gone from, depression, anxiety, chest pains, anger, rage, anxiety .............. am using extra prns to get through the day.

discussed with husband yesterday about going out together today because we both said we are like passing ships in the house. we live together but just make each other a hot drink, share an evening meal, talk around anything painful, bed.

i dont want to go out now, i dont have the energy to get ready, i just want to cry my heart out, hide under the blankets and hide from the world.

i dont like this and i like myself even less than before.

i am angry with every medical person and that is wrong.

i have had enough now.

hello @Former-Member @Appleblossom@Former-Member

received text tonight from son's dad. he phoned his dad wanting more money until he gets paid. his dad has sent him some. he said he sounded ok.

i told his dad great relief he is ok, but this cant go on, we have to know where he is living, how do we know what he is doing with the money? I have had a range of horrible thoughts today.

i have been on the telephone out of my mind for days on end and then i recd the text message.

Random thought this afternoon on way home from spending lovely afternoon, dinner out overlooking river, with husband. thought comes into my head. what if my son is dead? how long before he is found? will they identify him from previous missing report lodged now cancelled. What this is doing to us is incredible.

all of the carers on here who are caring and worn out worried sick, and those of you caring, managing or trying your best to look after yourself with your own illnesses.

something has to be done about the mental health system in this country. It is not good enough. It is not going to get any better either because the wrong people are in charge. The health minister needs to be drawing on information from sites like these. not statistics, surveys, new teams, real life stories.

ill get off my soap box again. time for bed. night night all. xx

You are under so much pressure @Former-Member, no parent should have to worry about their child like this. I would imagine you're feeling powerless and not knowing would be a huge strain on anyone. I hope you are able to get more information soon to help ease the pain you are in. sending hugs