Poetry and thoughts

Hi @Former-Member

Thankyou for your kind words and I do hear you! That is the value of this forum - the one thing that keeps me going in the tough times is knowing that there are so many people out there who do listen, do hear, empathise and show incredible support and advice. Whatever the struggles or pain we are all going through at different times we are all still here for each other - means the world to me.

It has been my saviour at times, late at night when I can't sleep, or when I'm feeling really low, to just write whatever comes out. It's incredibly empowering and at the same time incredibly draining.

Posted some similar thoughts earlier in the week. Will share with you here also.

I feel as if I was dropped into the middle of an ocean by myself as a child, surrounded by the deep, dark water, the unknown dangers that lie beneath and no land in sight. I have been treading water, occasionally floating, going under and pulling myself back up, struggling to breath, struggling to swim, searching for land, searching for life. The water constantly laps around my face – high enough to have to fight to stay afloat, low enough to not take me under forever. The waves push me in directions I don’t want to go, take me further from the stability of land under my feet, closer to exhaustion, closer to drowning. With every mouth full of water I take in the harder it becomes to want to fight. With every new wave that tosses me around, the more fatigued I become. Occasionally a boat can be seen in the distance and I think I can be rescued but just as quickly as it is sighted it disappears on the horizon. Hope is thwarted yet again. The larger the boat, the more the disappointment, the greater the waves that it leaves behind, the harder it becomes to swim. Just waiting for the water to be still and being able to float!

Feels great to be able to share this stuff with anyone who will read. Don't share with anyone outside of this forum

@jobe love it

Every night might be my last

Every night might be my last

But 'The Messiah' paid the price on 'The Cross'

But 'The Messiah' paid the price on 'The Cross'

But i have release 'Through Suffering'

But i have release 'Through Suffering'

And await for the fruits of 'The Messiah's Love And Mercy'

And await for the fruits of 'The Messiah's Love And Mercy'

And everything seems worthwhile

And everything seems worthwhile

And everything seems worthwhile

It is so hard to integrate our shadow side and sides of warmth and light and goodness...

Our male and female aspects

Our bloody land under, Cold Chisel and snooty tooty Classical Music sides.

Hoping there's a point to it all.

Best done in good company

Trying to change the angst and agony ... to Happyness and Joy ..

It does happen.

hello @Zoe7

Very overwhelming, suffocating thoughts.

You expressed them profoundly. That in itself is a huge help. This is what helps me the most on here just let my thoughts flow sometimes while i am crying, in pain, angry, despairing, helpless, numb, holding my breath forgetting to breathe.

the boats of varying sizes that have you have envisioned at different times. As a person reading your words and not experiencing your dream. I am wondering if you could perhaps look at those visions from a different angle. They come back, they are different, different sizes.

Perhaps and just perhaps they are windows of opportunity presenting themselves at different times, in different places and in different quantities.

Please do not think that I am diminishing the meaning of these visions for you in any way.

take care and hope to hear more from you.

just read this and didnt post it on the day so apologies for the delay

hello @LonelyExistance @Appleblossom

I too have some very dark, deep poetry, prose, writings that were written for my eyes only. i needed to get them out of my head and on to the paper.

In seeing them on the paper, I felt safe, they are not for others to read, as they are a deep and dark part of my self, for my eyes only.... they are hidden in a safe place.

keep writing even if you dont show anyone, even if you are writing to release, they are your thoughts and can be protected by you so that you dont feel vulnerable.

keep writing