Support for Flowerlove22

I am blah today @RiverSeal

How are you? I almost forgot you today

Maybe you can do something nice for yourself @Sunnyside226 so you don't feel blah all day! What do you think?

That's good you nearly forgot me, maybe you are busy and preoccupied with other things today.

What are your plans for today?

I just ate all the leftover fake meat hehe, sooo full!!

Take care

RiverSeal

Fake meat still geeee you are really game for that 😂😂 well done for it tho 😉

If I had forgotten you like I did with @tyme yesterday I would off been angry at myself I don't like telling people I will do something and I don't end up doing it

The little one wants to see her brother later so we are going to do that and maybe go for a drive I don't know yet she's in a mood today

What are your plans today @RiverSeal

Sorry for all the questions I don't think I have talked to you before so I am trying to get to everyone who I talk to I don't remember everyone tho

It's not you that has a dance is it?

We are here when you have time or need support so no stress if you have other things to do anytime @Sunnyside226 we can catch up when you are free.

That's lovely that you are taking the little one to see her brother later and maybe a drive and the visit will change her mood. Might be nice for you too to get out of the house and have a change of scenery. 🙂

I have to take a speaker back and exchange it for another one after work so looking forward to that. I bought a turntable and speakers and got into records hence the Taylor Swift albums I bought hehe.

Ask away @Sunnyside226 it's great to see you connecting on the Forums as I know you have a lot of responsibilities at the moment and some adult connection must be good huh?

I used to be quite the dancer back in my youth but not much these days so it must be someone else you are thinking of.

Did you end up calling a support line last night for a chat?

Take care

RiverSeal

Yes having adult connection is soooo good because having kids conversations all day is just a little boring for me I don't mean that in a bad way so it's nice to just talk to adults 😀

yes I called Lifeline or suicide call back I can't remember it was like 4.30 in the morning and the little one jumped on me because she's scared of the thunder and lightning

What are your hobbies ? @RiverSeal

Are you having a nice chill sunday?

Do you want to talk about what was going through your mind when you called Lifeline and Suicide Call Back? If you are fine that's ok, but I don't want you to be holding onto thoughts that I can support you with today @Sunnyside226.

Well listening to records and checking out record stores is a new hobby of mine and I like music in general so listen to a lot. I like dance music, chillout and pop mostly and prefer new stuff rather than old music. I like to walk but I am just getting back into that after having some time off because the track I use was having works done for a year, sooo long! I love to cook too and try to cook new recipes when I can and love to socialise with my friends who are mostly work colleagues current or past, but I have a few friends outside of work too.

Yeah, I'm pretty chill at the moment listening to music and I just made a coffee. 🙂

Are you going to have lunch before you go out or have you and the kids had that already?

Take care

RiverSeal

yeah happy to talk to you about what's on my mind if you want to listen no pressure

you're a coffee guy then here I was thinking you are more of a cup off tea

Sounds like you enjoy a lot 😄

Everyone is loving Taylor Swift at the moment the 4 year old only just played a song of hers on YouTube now 😂 but she's gone back to the Wiggles now 😂😂

I'm having a little chill time while bub sleeps and she plays I'm sitting here having a cup of tea and trying not to cry @RiverSeal

So how do you feel now after calling crisis support last night @Sunnyside226? Was it because you got disturbed by the little one being scared of the thunder and jumping in your bed or something else?

I know when I have call crisis support my feelings and thoughts have usually been there for some time before I actually make the call.

RiverSeal ❤️

I still feel shitty and the same I didn't say much to them I felt like I was wasting their time like I am now to you

It's just the bad thoughts and ever since I had to see someone the way I did has just been hard I haven't been the same since that sometimes I feel that way too and before I had to have the kids when my partner was away I thought to myself I wish I could of done better or done it myself the last night's have been rock hard hell for me @RiverSeal plus my ex partner is giving me shit and everything I feel shit now that I just told you I feel so sick in the gut

Sorry, you don't feel great after talking about what's going through your mind @Sunnyside226. It can be really challenging to say these things, but I honestly believe we are better off talking about them than bottling them up. I have been through so much of my own challenges, so I feel I have a good understanding about how that feels but honestly, we are here at SANE to support you and we genuinely care about the people we support. You don't need to feel like you are wasting our time because you are not.

Partners and ex partners don't always support us in the way we need or expect which can be really challenging. Do you need to have contact with your ex partner or give them the power to make you feel like this? People can be cruel when we have a breakup and can say hurtful things seemingly with ease sometimes.

Is your current partner away for a while or are you expecting them back soon? Do you keep in regular contact with them?

I've had a few bad breakups and ex partners so have plenty to contribute to a discussion if you want talk about things anytime. ❤️

Take care

RiverSeal