Support for Flowerlove22

Oh, you do support work? @Sunnyside226 If so, that's pretty awesome.

I hear it can be nerve-racking though. Can you call someone if you are 'stuck'?

@tyme I do both I work in the office

Sometimes with the kids/teenagers

I look after 2 houses

My boss is on call tomorrow for me but I am on call for the other house

You told me you have BPD do you get moody or lose your cool ? Please don't answer if you can't @tyme

I used to get very moody and lost complete control with my BPD @Sunnyside226 . My entire life was out of control. I'd end up doing very risky things. I'd flip from one emotion to another within a matter of seconds and the emotional pain with me was close to unbearable may times.

However, with targeted therapy for BPD, it's very rare now. Therapy was hard work though - very hard.

@tyme that sounds complex did you ever get really low where you yelled at others ?

The person goes from 0_100 really fast happy one minute then really angry and going off the next minute

I must ask do you ever get a hypo where you like walk or run fast ?

That's one thing about this person is he will run in the shops not one person can keep up sorry if that doesn't make sense I'll put it this way he's full on

Anxiety sick

I really messed up I never should of opened up to the helpline I am shaking I wanna hit the wall

Hey @Sunnyside226 ,

Sorry the helpline didn't really help. Despite that, good on you for reaching out. That in itself takes a lot of strength.

With me, I didn't yell at people because I was really low. I yelled, raged and screamed at people because I was angry and frustrated. I struggled to regulate my emotions and therefore I lashed out - physically too (I'm sorry to say). I'm not proud of it.

Any yes, I easily went from 0-100 in a matter of seconds. That was part of the emotional dysregulation.

And running really fast? Yes. I've done that. And it wasn't safe. I was running on the emotional brain and ran into many risky situations.

But remember, I have BPD - not bipolar.

Also, as a 13 year old, your kid may just be showing the signs of being a teenager. It's very similar. Their brains go a little wild because of neural pruning.

@tyme off topic the helpline called the ambulance all I wanted was someone to talk too what did I do wrong I am crying I am a burden I let people down

Shit I am stressed 😫 i want to run and hide now

The person is 16 not 13 I got that wrong

@tyme I'm scared my head is through the roof

@tyme it sounds like you had it hard hun here's a hug 🫂

That's the thing about helplines and even services life ours. If they hear that you can't cope and you have suicidal thoughts, they must conduct a risk assessment.

Maybe it's about practicing the language you use when speaking about how you are feeling?

We can talk more about this next time because I don't think this is a good time to talk about the nuances of language.

Please know we are here for you @Sunnyside226

And yes, I've had a very very tough MH journey.

@tyme I told the woman I was safe that I was just feeling suicidal needed it off my chest I didn't want to bother anyone here 😞

Oh hun it sounds like you have had a tough mental health journey I wish I could give you a little hug 🫂 I feel bad for you

Here's a coffee ☕ and 🎂 for you with extra icing 😁

Does BPD get better? Does it go away? Sorry for my questions