Support for Flowerlove22

I'm holding on by a line with this

Take a step back hun. @Sunnyside226 You are an amazing person. They may not understand you, but we are here for you.

When you feel you can't hold on, let others hold onto you. I'll hold onto you tonight.

Are you home alone?

@tyme my sister is very cranky with me after yesterday's incident where I had to call 000 today she's called me some bad names I won't say

My brother is pissed off with me because I said no to having the kids

He told me I might as well end up like dad

I am home alone crying I have no one right now I am on thin ice

I should be my own life too but no I am burnt out with everything I feel mentally and physically drained and sick

I don't know what to do anymore I tried to help if that's how things what to be then I am happy to go leave them forever I won't come back

I have hit the walls I have kicked the door I am too upset and angry all I need is someone to be with me 💔💔😫😡 I feel so alone @tyme I'm sorry hun

I'm here for you. It may seem like you are alone, but I'm here for you. @Sunnyside226

Is it better you don't talk to them for a while as a way to protect yourself?

As for having your brother's kids, they are HIS kids. There are three of them. It's not easy. It's not really fair that you are expected to look after them when you can't.

Do what's right for you 🙂

@tyme he only asked because he wants to go out on the weekend which I can't have them because I'll be at work and my partner is going camping with the boys

I feel selfish because they won't be a kid forever but I need time to myself as well

As for today I had a meeting this morning and I visited someone in the hospital

I almost had to call the ambulance on myself because I had chest pains

Anyways are you on the other thing tonight? @tyme

I wish I could run away and hide

I have scary thoughts I don't know why

Wanting to hide and run away is a feeling a few of our members are feeling tonight. You are certainly not alone feeling this way. @Sunnyside226

Nope, you need to look after yourself. You can't have the three children day in and day out all the time when you need support yourself.

When you asked if I was on the 'other thing', I had to step back and think about what you were talking about. The Peer Group Chat! No, I'm on the next two weeks though.

I hope to have an early night tonight.

Tell me something interesting about you. I feel I don't know you very well.

@tyme that's it the group chat 😂

What would you like to know?

To be fair I don't know you either I almost called you mum 😂 I was thinking about my mum

I think I did something , but why is everyone different on here @tyme ?

Mum @Sunnyside226 . We have quite a few mums here like @Shaz51 mum.

I feel that a Mum is not a person. It's a position or a role. Someone who is a motherly figure and therefore be mum 🙂 (Note, this is only MY thinking. It's not a fact or a rule).

What do you mean "everyone so different here"? Are humans supposed to all be the same? I reckon it's because people on these forums are real people and not robots trained to respond to people.

Oh @tyme you really are funny 🤣

Yes I guessed everyone is real on here 🤣

What I meant was someone people say don't say this call a helpline or something some people say just be yourself and let it out on the forums

I find it very confusing

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For example if I said @tyme I feel si or I have done something bad or I am thinking about doing something you may say call a helpline or whatever we can't help

But

Then others say just be yourself let your feelings out that's what the forms are for I am a little confused

I never thought off anyone as a robot

Arghhh @Sunnyside226 ! THAT makes sense. I get you.

What happens is that when Peer Support Workers or I am on, we have more of a touch with the community so we know you better than moderators who may be on shift 1-2 hours a month and don't know you.

That means, we are more likely to know when we see a change in your posting to show there is real imminent risk that needs emergency.

This is different to moderators who do not spend as much time in the community. So if you post after 10pm that you are having thoughts of self-harm or suicide, they have the duty of care to refer you on or call 000.

Does that make it clearer? Please let me know if I don't make sense.

This means, from 10pm-10am, moderators are online - they manage RISK.

From 10am-10pm, Peer Workers are online - they manage risk AND engage with the community.

In the background, we have about 60-70 moderators who take turns at moderating.