A little about Franscene

Hello Franscene. I'm a newbie to the forum too, so I'll leave it up to the mods to formally welcome you.

For a start off Franscene, you're not a failure. You have an illness that keeps you from fully enjoying life and that's not your fault. You mention that you have a kind and loving husband and supportive friends. That must be of great comfort. OCD can be a terrible thing. I have it in a mild form along with BPD. I also suffer great anxiety kind of spontanously, sometimes triggered and sometimes for no apparent reason at all, but it's horrible and I really struggle with it, so I feel for you.

Hope to see you posting more.

Ellie.

hello 🙂

I hope you find this forum a really good connection to people who can support you if and when you need it.

I think it can be hard for any one to be completely happy and content in their lifes- we all have so many pressures and so called " expectations" to what we should be living up to in life.

Im glad to read you have supports at home with friends and family.

What sort of things do you do to help your self when your really anxious?

Hi Franscene,

Thanks so much for your post, and welcome to the forums from another relative newbie.

I got a big smile from your username, which I'm assuming is a clever play on words (something that always delights me!). And I got a gentle smile of recognition from your description of your struggles, that forked dilemma that is housework (oh, I can so relate! I have a dying air conditioner that I desperately need fixed, but I put off making the appointment because I don't want anyone to see the state of my house! Which discomfort is going to win out?!)

But Franscene, i quietly admire you for the achievements you've shared -- a successful relationship and two kids, all while keeping yourself afloat. That's not nothing, so the gentle applause you hear from off in this corner is for you.

I look forward to hearing more from you, when you're ready to share.

Kind regards,

Aonaran

Hi Ellie,

Thanks for your kind words. I tried to reply to your post a while ago but somehow I mucked up and it got lost somehow. So I'll try again. My anxiety is sometimes triggered by obvious external events. I find it extremely difficult when there are a few things going on at the same time. Suddenly, it all seems too hard to handle and my anxiety levels are ridiculously high. As far as the spontaneous anxiety my doc tells me if I examine things a little more closely (by for example keeping a mood diary) I may actually find the cause of my anxious feelings. Will try to give this a go!

Take Care

Hi Alessandra,

Thanks for your warm welcome and taking the time to reply. I read a long time ago that the French refer to OCD as "the doubting disease". So apt a description. I find it hard to make decisions because I fear that I will make the wrong one. "What if....?"

Even posting here is very hard for me. I feel so scared to hit post. "What if someone thinks "why did she bother?" What if i spell something incorrectly? Etc., etc.

Thanks for your view about teaching others acceptance. A lovely idea.

Franscene

Hi Baboo,

Thanks for your welcome!

I wish I could work out how to reply to a group of people at once but I really am not very computer savvy and have never contributed to a forum before.

I am trying mindfulness meditation with a view that it has to be better than mindlessly taking medication!

I do take SSRI meds though.

Franscene