~ The Toolshed ~

@MissGremlin Life does get tough. It’s difficult pushing through isnt it? I understand too how exhausting it is and that while you feel like giving up thee is a part a spark that pushes through.

Thank you for the encouragement. It wasn’t easy getting ready to be honest. This anxiety just wrecks me. I get some relief when I’m around people and out of house. I’m hoping that happens today while training. Sending strength to you too.

@Cuddlebear yes pushing through is hard. I just hate being alone trying to manage everything, that's why I'm so glad to have people to talk to here.

Anxiety is so hard and debilitating but I'm so glad you get a bit of relief being around people and getting out of the house. I struggle to go out because of my anxiety and it's only getting worse.

Thankyou, I really hope your day goes ok ❤️

@MissGremlin my lovely, I hope you remind yourself that you matter too.

We'd all be missing something special were you not here to post your beautiful quotes.

I hope your week treats you kindly xo

@ENKELI i do try to remind myself but I'm not very good at it. It's nice to be reminded by people here though and I'm glad I can be here to post these quotes for everyone.

Thankyou ♥️. I hope you are having a good week 😊

@MissGremlin Hello Dreamy how is your afternoon? I really appreciate the chat here and I am glad you find it helpful too and you feel less alone knowing we are here. It is hard being alone and living with anxious feelings. The feelings are overwhelming for me too and I totally get what you mean when you say that you are trying to manage everything. Small or simple things become big and hard. Do only what you can and celebrate that even when those things are messaging here and getting through each day.

Yes I do get relief when I’m with people and have something to do. Unfortunatly that isnt often and I’ve lost a lot of my confidence and find going out hard. Training at least has got me out a bit and it was a bit of relief when I was doing that today. Now I’m home again stupid anxiety is there and I just can’t do anything even just simple things.

I’ve run out of basic supplies at home and have not had the ability to get toilet paper and other stuff I need. I’ll just try and do an online shop to come tomorrow. That’s the best I can muster at the moment.

I really appreciate and value for friendship and honesty on this forum. I really love your inspiring meme posts in the morning. Thank you for being such a decent human and I’m really glad you are here.

@Cuddlebear @I am glad you liked the link. I try not to overdo sharing links, but I thought she was really worth it. I will use her language of….allowing. I have been looking at therapeutic stuff since the late 70s… yes meditation… raj and Hatha yoga… back then… and university… and Bessel van der Kolk and neuroscience…. Etc etc.

I also have CPTSD from similar age and I am also on DSP and very careful with money. I am pretty upset that the RANZCP does not bulk bill more. Outraged and disgusted really. Makes a mockery of the pretence to idealism. I can manage my gap fee, so pay it, but yes, plenty can’t, and shouldn’t, as the quality of care they offer can be minimal. Anyway that is what my son found. They are in it for the money. I am polite with my psychiatrist, but don’t really respect his contributions as it is too light on to justify the cost. He is not bad though, so I accept it as a necessary evil, that I need to keep my support structures afloat, and hence keep my son afloat. I have been in a carer role for people with serious mental illness since childhood. Wish they would lock me up, not my family, but that is not the way it has been.

I prefer deeper conversations and sharing and feel very lonely when people only talk about superficial things, even on here. I do value the range in the community which helps cover many aspects of life. I don’t mean to be a sad sack, though, so try for a light hearted easy going patter. Definitely look for any gems that are beneficial for a whole range of mental health challenges.

I know people need cheering up too.

@MissGremlinyour posts and support for others matters.

@PeppyPatti always good to see floating around

@ENKELI you too

Thanks @Appleblossom, hope you are doing ok ❤️

@Cuddlebear thankyou so much for this post and all the kind words. I will try and reply properly shortly, just having a bit of a tough time right now after something happened when I went to the shops.

Just taking some time to try and calm myself down, keeping connected here but can only manage short replies right now.