~ The Toolshed ~

Hello @lonemushroom, how are you going?

@MissGremlin pretty tired as I’ve only had a couple hours sleep but okay as I can be for now, just having some coffee in front of the heater and catching up on here currently as I wasn’t on here much last week

hows your morning going?

@lonemushroomsorry to hear you didn't get much sleep, hopefully you can rest today and day a good night's sleep tonight. Enjoy your coffee and the heater.

My morning hasn't been great but I'm just trying to keep myself distracted. Have a doctors appointment after 12pm.

@MissGremlin They are all really good distractions. It’s good you did a bit of colouring. We distracted you with a busy online chat last night so it’s understandable would be hard to focus.

I struggle to focus on stuff when I’m like this. The only thing I seem to do is scroll reels, cry and cuddle my doggie. I also come on here and chat. I have a disability support worker for a few hours later today. That’s at least some company.

Looks like the rain and stormy weather is a bit later today in Melbourne. It’s been quite a warm start to autumn here.

@lonemushroom Good morning 🙂 How are you? @MissGremlin and I have just been having a morning chat. Good to see you are online.

what are you upto today?

@Cuddlebear yeah the Sunday night chat was good last night and definitely kept me distracted.

Yeah focusing on things when your in a bad headspace is really hard. I'm so glad you have your doggy to cuddle and chatting here is a great distraction. Glad you have someone coming later for some company, that's always nice.

Well enjoy the sunshine while it lasts.

@MissGremlin I’m sorry your morning hasn’t been great, I hope the rest of your day is a lot better and that your doctors appointment goes well

its so good that we have this forum to distract ourselves and seek support when we most need it honestly

@Cuddlebear not too much on for me today, hoping to get some more rest if I’m lucky and also get homework my psychologist gave to me done before my next appointment with them tomorrow

just gonna try to take it easy today I think

do you have much on for today? 😊

Thanks @lonemushroom, yes it's great to have these forums.

@lonemushroom Sounds like you’ve got a good plan for today. I don’t have anything specific to do but I’ll take my doggie for a play at the park soon. I’ve been in a bit of a rut / complex ptsd and doing very little. I’ve got covid too so not too much energy at the moment but it’s getting a bit better each day.

It’s great your psychologist gives you homework. Do you find it useful? What type of stuff do they give you?

@Cuddlebear aw I hope you and your doggie have heaps of fun at the park, I’m so sorry to hear you’ve been in a rut though 💗

I also have complex ptsd and had covid for the very first time just a couple months ago which has put me in a bad way so I feel you there, I’m sure our stories are very different as is the case with everyone’s personal journeys but just wanted you to know you’re not alone

I’ve only started seeing my psychologist again since just last week after struggling to get a referral back and being without help for 3 years so it’s taking a while for a clear care plan to really come together but I guess it usually depends on what’s going on with me at a particular time and how I’m handling things. I got broken up with 3 weeks ago right when I’m still dealing with some preeeeetty messed up family stuff that went down at the beginning of this year that basically completely retraumatised me to the max, and to be really honest every single mental health professional I’ve been speaking to recently, including my psychologist, have pretty much all said the same that the way he went about not being able to continue our relationship was pretty irresponsible on his end, and that I deserve to be able to voice my feelings and talk to him about why his actions were hurtful (we’re not completely no contact as we’ve agreed we want to at least still be friends). so my psychologist wants me to try and write out as much as I can about how I’m feeling and what I’d like to say to him and tomorrow she’s gonna help me reword things and figure out a message to send to him. my complex ptsd really makes me struggle with communication and standing up for myself a lot so that can be a common theme at times 😅