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Hi,

I am Pudelin and I am going through being diagnosed for the second time around. They thought they got it wrong in hindsight back in 2007 or thereabouts and therefore was undiagnosed in around 2012. But did they? As I am now back here again after another major (recognizable) episode. And after how many in between that I was able to kinda function through more or less and I did not confess the depth of my symptoms during these times to the professionals and therefore hiding it from others and more importantly hiding it from myself. This time like the first time was a shock, as during these times I could not recognize the true nature of what was really happening - until (this time) I suddenly knew something was very wrong within myself. But BP was not the answer I was in my wildest dreams thinking that I would hear ever again come out of a professionals mouth. It is still a bit unclear as to which one I have? But BP it is! There are more types to be chosen from this time around with sub types as well I believe from my understanding. I have been diagnosed with many titles in my time, should I feel privileged as sometimes it’s a huge positive and sometimes it feels like it can play out as a huge negative! I have also been diagnosed with ASD2 and ADHD this year and am still coming to terms with that. And since have had extreme life changes that have impacted and lead me to here today… and again about to go and visit my Dr to discuss my BP? Its mind blowing the journey one has with their own mental health and the mental affects as well the effects diagnosis’s play on your mental health and it can feel like you are just going around in circles at times! As well as the cycle of the financial and relationship stress’s that sit as co-morbid mobilities with your mental health. So we will see what the discussion further amounts to today! Kindest Regards,

Pudelin