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TW

TW

  • Hello, everyone. On my phone, 4th attempt to post. Times have been tough lately. Lives are improving, relationships growing, homes being bought etc, but not for me. I put on my happy face and watch as everyone watches me, waiting. I couldn't stand being used and abused and disrespected anymore so I ODd. I told you someone would ring or knock when they shouldn't and my dear neighbour did. I left a note on my door to ring the police from 3 years ago asI didn't want to decay for months before being found.She was upset so I answered and so here I am in a different prison. I'm told it was serious,but apparently not serious enough.lm so damned unhappy. What is the point of my life? I've looked everywhere and tried everything.

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I'm so sorry, @Historylover . ☹️

I wish I knew what to say to fix it for you, or at least make it better.

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Content/trigger warning
And they are forcing me to take medication or they'll hold me down and inject me @Appleblossom.

I wish I was religious. I'd be on my knees, but that's where they'll have me anyway.

Something is seriously wrong with notifications! I'm not getting them and I'm not the only one.

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Bad to worse to even worse @chibam. They have me where they want me and they've only just begun. I don't know what else to say. I think I've said before that that ex-psy is out to get me. Just watch. He's at the helm all the way.

This is life?

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They did @chibam, and I'm going to ring them when I gain some better understanding. How do less capable people cope? We're already traumatized. Now they are withholding information they know I need. I waited for registrar to further answer an evasive answer I was given which is essential. He managed to get away. They are colluding as how to get me under their control. Now I have to wait for Monday. Playing for time too.

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Where'd the 'Trigger Warning' come from in an earlier post. It was hardly triggering!

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🥴@chibam.

No other emoticons were more appropriate and this one falls far short.

They keep milking me for information and I only realize later. I'm so distressed that I can't help but blab. And stand up for myself. I speak too many truths that threaten their 'standing'.

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@Historylover wrote:

I speak too many truths that threaten their 'standing'.


I know how that goes, @Historylover . I, too, often speak things that, as far as I can tell, are glaring truths; but instead of having my statements civilly debunked, I find they get completely sensored. They don't want the truth to be spoken or acknowledged. Because if I was spouting dangerous misinformation, why wouldn't they simply disprove what I say? Perhaps I might thereby come to understand their point of view, too.

I'm sorry to hear that you have to wait so long to get some answers from that advocacy organization. When the situation is so dire and the stakes so immediate, you really should be able to get assistance very quickly, shouldn't you? It's probably a testiment to how underfunded, under-resourced, and over-worked that advocacy organization is. Thousands of patients who need help and not nearly enough advocates to get to them all in short order.

This is probably a really stupid suggestion, but you've often mentioned how you like to read & study? Would it be helpful for you to spend your long wait reading up on the Vic mental health laws so that you can better undertstand what your therapists can and can't get away with?

I don't know. Perhaps I've just seen way too many cop shows with wrongly-convicted convicts who spent their prison terms obsessively researching their own cases so as to prove their innosence.

In any event, I hope you manage to get out of that situation soon, @Historylover .🤗 We all deserve to be safe and free.

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@chibam, no matter how much I study up on it, and I have read the essentially provided paperwork, this is their ballpark and I'm the opposing 'team'. This is no simple task and they are getting their heads together over the weekend to align their story. Glaring truths are discomfitting for them, too threatening for them to be shown wanting. But I can't go on reading up. I have enough on the leaflets. It's all making me feel ill and life threatened. I knew this would happen if I failed but I'm grateful to have not damaged my organs and health.

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continuing... @chibam, I have little more than the clothes I came in wearing, and I wore them for a week. I also slept fully clothed as the automatic blind is stuck in the up position. They've now given me some 'clothes' but I think I prefer the unisex, hospital pyjamas. Even they look better, with rolled up sleeves and pants for a stylish flourish. Our clothes are an expression of who we are and they must revel in taking us down to the lowest representation of ourselves. But they are so 'friendly' and 'kind' and our every word is reported or gossiped about, or used as

evidence against us

I'll post before it deletes on me.

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continuing... I. am to go in front of a tribunal in 9 days. I have to say why they don't need to detain me. They (3 of them) will say why it's necessary and I have to say why it's unnecessary. All I need is ACTUAL help instead of platitudes and empty promises which is the reason I took this step.

I am advised that I have a delusion disorder but I need to know which so that I can counter with argument and evidence.

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