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TW

  • Hello, everyone. On my phone, 4th attempt to post. Times have been tough lately. Lives are improving, relationships growing, homes being bought etc, but not for me. I put on my happy face and watch as everyone watches me, waiting. I couldn't stand being used and abused and disrespected anymore so I ODd. I told you someone would ring or knock when they shouldn't and my dear neighbour did. I left a note on my door to ring the police from 3 years ago asI didn't want to decay for months before being found.She was upset so I answered and so here I am in a different prison. I'm told it was serious,but apparently not serious enough.lm so damned unhappy. What is the point of my life? I've looked everywhere and tried everything.

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The trouble is @Former-Member , that I don't have plans, hopes, dreams-'loved ones-'a home to attempt obliterate all the recalled betrayals I've endured, that keep churning around in my brain. Everything has taken on it's truer meaning now that I have broken my rose coloured glasses and the realisation that I was too smart to be duped again was also a delusion. I'm not an imbecile-or at least I hadn't thought so. So, who can be trusted in this world? Not parents, spouses, sibs, children, grandchildren, friends, doctors, dentists........ I'll have a look at the book and perhaps YouTube when I am up to it. Thank you for your kind words when I needed them so badly @Former-Member . Sending love and best wishes your way.

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I know we can't advise @MissA , but just a few caring words can work wonders, can't they? So thank you sincerely for thinking of me. I've been talking to staff here as they present but I always have to remember that they are a team, and I'm not on it. I naturally turned here as it is the only place I have ever experienced camaraderie. I only wish we could meet in person or on zoom but we must suffice with written words. You're from the UK? Which part?

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Hi @Historylover .

I never know what to say at times like this, aside from that I'm sorry your in such a low place right now. I wish I had a solution for you, but alas I do not.

There's been a bit of a surge of discussion about loneliness in the media recently. Talk, but no action. Dr. Michelle Lim, who's apparently Australia's go-to expert on loneliness, and her cronies put out a "white paper" on loneliness recently, which vaguely calls for action. Although I must admit that it was heartening to at least see that "experts" are finally starting to appreciate the scope and subtleties of the problem.

And Lived Experiance Australia have apparently been working hard to promote their loneliness report to all the decision-makers behind the mental health system.

But will the talk ever amount to anything meaningful? I don't know. Perhaps we should be grateful that the thought-leaders are at least talking about it now, rather then continuing to ignore the issue entirely.

I wish I could do more, but that's about as much as a ray of sunshine as I'm able to offer, I'm afraid.

Be well, @Historylover . I hope the future is bright for you.

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Your ray of sunshine shone brightly through my window, @chibam. Thank you for it. I am wary of everybody here and my trust is hard earned but it is slowly growing. It's the loss of personal empowerment that makes me contrary/somewhat cantankerous. I have a nice, private room that overlooks a courtyard and a nurse is taking me for a walk around it later. I said it's been 20 years since I had a holiday, so perhaps I'll sit back and enjoy the change of scenery.Take care my friend, I 'm doing likewise.🖖

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@Historylover we have to be there for each other, even if it is through a phone or keyboard! I am actually from Melbourne, but spent several years in London and Hertfordshire - mainly Bushey/Bushey Heath/Watford, so still close to the edges of London proper 🙂

Hugs xo

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London is one of my favourite cities, @MissA, so steeped in history. That's something I miss here. At least, our Aboriginal population have plenty still. Not enough, but plenty.

Thank you for reaching out. As you say, even reaching out through our keyboards can save lives. Just knowing someone cares and isn't being paid to do so. It makes it genuine.😊

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Gentle Hugs @Historylover

I feel a deep sadness for what you have been through recently. I too, know the power of significant dates. I wont say much, but glad you found the forum more trustworthy than some parts of the world.

Do what you have to do.

Apple

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@Kyle1 , I must add that when I escaped from the hospital, I knew the police would be on my trail. I went out the wrong door, still heavily drugged, went a km out of my way on 3 km walk.Whenever I saw a police car, I hid, but in the event I saw them first, I put my large handbag under my jacket to present a pregnant lady's profile and as I'm 72, I knew they'd look passed me. Am I creative or what?

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My own room, @Kyle1 and a lovely garden view. There was talk of several weeks stay but since talking with you 'mob', I feel so much lifted in spirits. I can't see that a lengthy stay will be necessary as long as they follow through with their promise of a weekly visit and call. I'll begin to feel like a member of the human race.

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creative...yeah, I'd say @Historylover

I feel frustrated for you that you had to resort to that.

Sounds to me like you need a true friend, and I'm so sorry you haven't found one just yet. For what it's worth, you h a ve folks who really value you here. 🫂

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