Cats101Senior Contributor
Work and money
I'm in a constant state of crisis. Looking for a job is like looking for a needle in a haystack, constantly looking at each and every individual piece of hay to find the needle.
you get tired of looking at evey single piece of hay.
Looking and applying to different jobs and getting rejected constantly, is like a punch to the gut, I need a job, I need to have money to pay bills and help out my family, I don't want to keep relying on them and being a burden.
my first job I had was helping out at a small Cafe, I managed a week and a half before I had a meltdown and anxiety attack, it was a stressful job, they new I Had social anxiety and i asked not to be put at the register, but they completely ignored that and kept pushing and pushing, my boss was always angry always stressed and took it out on others, they expected me to do well, when I had only a little experience that they taught me, communicating was like talking to a brick wall.
I'm stuck in a bubble searching through hay to find a needle to pop the bubble, I lm sick of being told to be patient and that I'd get a job soon or aventually, I need one now, where I'm not dependant of my family to pay my bills And buy things that I need.
Sorry I kind of vented, I know it's not a big worry, but I just can't help but think what a burden I am.