Far and Away

Oh @Zoe7 ... I am so sorry that happened. How disappointing it is. Yes .. living life with trauma is the pits. There are times we can predict these things, and we learn to deal with them as best we can. Its these ones which come out of the blue, and we are therefore totally unprepared for, that really knock the wind out of our sails. Sydney to Hobart yacht race pun there. 😊 I'm awfully sorry it happened to you today Zoe. Especially when things have been on the improve these last few days. Those really vivid nightmares seem so very real when we are in the midst of them. I know you are very well aware of what you need to do under those circumstances, so I wont go into that.

Just keep yourself safe, and if that means keeping away from the forums this arvo/night then please do that. You dont want to risk being further triggered.

Please take care Zoe. Glad to hear you feel safe again now. Hope the sore head and nausea eases soon. Have you taken something for that?

@Shaz51... good to hear from you while you are away on a getaway. Sorry Mr Shaz has been disappointed about visiting places where he has taken photos before. Is that because you are not going there, or he is disappointed when he does get there? Are you okay with lots of driving? I know you dont drive, but are you a happy passenger?

Sherry 💕

I do know you get it so well @Former-Member - so wish you didn't Hon Yes taken more meds for headache and they are working a little again so that is a little positive. The nausea will pass on its own eventually - used to have meds for that too but don't at present so will have to ride it out. Very much doing what I need to just get through right now and not putting any pressure on myself to do anything else - knowing this will eventually pass and just need to ride it out. Have fed the babies so they are happy - Cat asking for food was irritating me - which is a pretty good sign I am not right. Have prns if I need them to settle but trying to avoid that for now ...if I can't settle soon I will go down that road though. The cricket is actually helping - giving me something to focus on (just can't have the sound on).

I may be on and off here again for a while but for now it is quiet and having the people around I care for is actually helping ... @Former-Member @Sans911 @Maggie @Shaz51

Okay @Zoe7 ... I am very happy to be around for you if it helps.

I have the cricket on too. Whatever are the Aussies doing? Wickets falling like tenpins!

I had thought they would go for quick runs, but not like this.

Yes that is a good sign that you are not yourself, ie being irritated by poor Cat. Glad she is now fed and happy, along with Toby. I always feed Holly around 4pm .. she simply cannot wait any later than that. She gets quite demanding if I am running late. Dont know how she does it, but she just KNOWS its time. I think she can read the big clock on the wall. She is funny though ... she waits until she catches my eye .. then she crouches down on her front legs (back legs still up) and yaps at me with a big smile on her face. Like yeah yeah, I know Holly ... its dinner time. How can you resist that?

Sherry 🤩

Yeah @Sans911 it is a bit unusual but very much a part of the progression of the trauma I went through so often - music is a big trigger - especially a few particular songs he used to sing regularly. Music of any kind used to be really hard to deal with but I have got better over the last few years dealing with that. I have a few CDs I play in the car that have special meaning to me with people here - so that produces happy thoughts. I avoid radio and music shows as a rule ...and a lot that is posted on here depending who it comes from as some I just cannot deal with.

Your holiday spot sounds really lovely - a great place to have some down time, relax and enjoy the world going by - just what you need Hon I look forward to hearing all about it when you write about it 👍😁

They definitely know when it is dinner time @Former-Member Cat is the most vocal and Toby follows her. He would not care as much if it wasn't for Cat starting the chorus lol They get fed at 5 and Cat usually starts around 4.30 asking for her dinner. They did get fed earlier than usual this morning too so probably felt they should get dinner early too.

Holly sounds like she certainly have you wrapped around her little paw - so cute 🐶😘 I can imagine her asking for dinner, crouching down on her front legs and talking to you - she is such a sweetheart and a bit naughty Reminds me of Tobes - he talks to me when he wants to go out or play (and often when I am on the phone) - anything to bring the attention back to him ...he really can be naughty too Spoilt much!!!!

The Aussie cricketers are falling like flies this session - would not mind if they were scoring more runs - need at least 500 lead to have the runs on the board to knock the NZers off in the next 2 days.

@Zoe7 Yes our furbabies can bring so much joy into our lives. Cant help but laugh at them most of the time. Whatever would we do without them though?

I was not aware that some songs are triggering for you Zoe. I have to be more careful dont I, because I have posted some songs for you recently. I guess I should not be overly surprised, because there are so many memories wrapped up in music. I have a particular song which always brings instantly to mind my first boyfriend, the one who died in a car accident many moons ago. Its a little bit like the sense of smell, that can be such a powerful sense when it comes to traumatic memories. Its one of my most vivid ones actually. I'm starting to wonder now Zoe if that thread I tagged you into yesterday may have had an affect on you. In that Dean mentioned his girlfriends past. If that is the case .. I am so sorry.

Sherry 💕

No it was okay @Former-Member I was in a pretty good place yesterday so read it as was and dealt with it okay. It did bring back some stuff but nothing I could not handle at the time 👍 I also see songs posted from some of you as done with love and care and there have not been any that have affected me ...they are usually carefully chosen for the messages in then and that I do appreciate even when they tug at the heart strings. I also have one particular song that affects me the most - it was the last thing I heard that night before I fell asleep so it is the last conscious memory I also have before life got incredibly hard. It also used to be my favourite song for him to sing because he did it so well - he really was very talented musically - singing and played several instruments so well. He came from a very musical family though - several in popular bands at the time here, in Melbourne and also in Sydney. As you can imagine I can't name any here.

I also understand that smell thing - that is a childhood thing for me - especially the smell of gum trees which is a double edged sword because I also really like that smell It is part of getting out in nature a lot so I have to be in the right mindset to do that too - so hard. The beach is one place I do love though - happy memories especially when I take Toby and see how happy he is playing in the sand and chasing the water.

Hi @Zoe7 Sorry you werent feeling good earlier and had to go lie down. Really hope you are feeling better now. I hope you are able to get some restful sleep tonight, uninterrupted by nightmares. I also wanted to let you know that I am okay. Dont want you worrying unnecessarily.

Sherry 😴💕