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@Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Former-Member @Sans911 @Bimby2 @Shaz51 @Meowmy @eth @Maggie ...
Had some more sleep this morning but still very weary. Will probable sleep some more this afternoon.
Love that butterfly bush Maggie - such a skill to grow, prune and sculpture such a beautiful piece 
In regards to the psych session @Former-Member - it was a at the very end of the time and I said I didn't want to go into it - needed much more time than we had and I really did not want to talk about it yesterday. It made it hard to get through when I left but not talking about it was the right thing for me ...would have brought up so much more that I don't want to go into - just too hard. I am very much thinking that I need a break from seeing the psych again and that leaving things in the past is the direction I need to go. I honestly do not think that I will ever be ready to deal with some things and that continuing to try to move forward is the best approach. There have been a lot of triggers lately but on the whole I am dealing with them much better - even if it does not feel like that at the time. It is slight progress but progress all the same. As you know - there are some things that are just too hard to continue to relive and the impact of doing that is often so debilitsting that it consumes us. I cannot go through all that again - so choosing not to face the past is infact a positive approach to be able to find a way forward - it is hard though and there are still many, many things that still hit me and affect me day to day. It also means I still need to avoid as much as I can possible triggering situations to get through this right now ...and that still means disconnecting from people and situations where that can possibly happen. The other side of that is I very much miss people on here. Life is pretty difficult right now ...and is likely to be for a while yet with upcoming things to face. It is what it is and I just need to get through each day.
@Faith-and-Hope yes baby steps Hon ...that is all we can do hey 