Far and Away

Thanks for understanding @Zoe7

you’d be shocked to hear what they say to my face, with a smirk. I am shocked. I wouldn’t say these things to my worst enemy.

I try to move on and then something else is said. I try not bumping into them, but that’s hard when visiting mum. If I try and say anything to stand up for myself, they attack me worse and it’s too hard. I don’t have the strength to fight and I wouldn’t want to fight with people that just want to knock me down for no reason. I think it’s because they can’t control me anymore. Who knows.

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It is so hard when you are constantly knocked down by others @Former-Member - there is no wonder you have been feeling as you have It is even harder when they are family and you cannot avoid them when visiting your Mum. Some people take pleasure from hurting others - and often it is a control thing. I do understand the energy it takes to deal with all that and it certainly takes strength to continue seeing your Mum and dealing with all that. Do not sell yourself short Hon - it is devastating to deal with again and again but you keep going each day and find ways forward. That to me shows the strength you have

💜 @Zoe7

I still feel so broken. Yesterday was scary. I just couldn’t take anymore hurt. Evil people they are. They know all about my abusive past and have never shown compassion. When my face was black and blue one of them said, what did I do to provoke it. Wow!

And now it’s, “get over it”. I’m trying my hardest to move forward. It’s EX family I’m struggling to “get over”. I’m over the other stuff.

I’m still dreaming of moving overseas. Keeping an eye out for cheapish holiday to NZ to see if it’s a possibility.

I have to keep a dream going.

Some days the dream is non existent.

I’m raving on again. lol

Just cooking salmon chips and salad. Haven’t cooked much lately.

Hi @Snowie and @Maggie Sending you both love also

@Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member Just found out there are no parent-teacher interviews Monday or Tuesday for our class so will have a little extra time to get things organised this week after school. Takes a bit of pressure off getting it all done tonight and also means I won't have to go in as early as I planned to in the morning. Will still try to get most of it done tonight but makes it less stressful if I don't.

I hope you don’t get emails when I correct typing errors 😳😫

maybe I shouldn’t worry

anyway. Please don’t feel that you have to reply. It’s ok. Better check dinner.

I don’t want you to feel pressured to reply @Zoe7 🦋

One of the sad parts of our society can be the lack of understanding about DV and the ongoing and long lasting impacts of it @Former-Member You certainly have not/did not do anything wrong - violence is the perpetrators fault solely and wholey. I find it unforgiveable that anyone would even suggest, let a lone accuse, the victim of doing something to provoke it - grrr!!! They are certainly not compassionate nor informed people Hon and good that you have as little as possible to do with them. People like that do not deserve your time nor your thoughts!

I have been to NZ - it is such a lovely place. Parts of it remind me of Tassie - beautiful scenary, a relatively easy going life (on the whole) and a great place to live. It would be great if you could at least take a trip there - you certainly deserve the break.

No pressure whatsoever to reply @Former-Member More than happy to be here with you and listen. I actually feel privileged that you are here chatting with me and opening up about what is going on for you - I know personally how hard that is to do when you are so down - so to trust me with all this is massive Hon

I had an early dinner so that is all done and cleaned up - still have the washing up to do but that can wait. Your dinner sounds lovely - salmon is one of my favourites

@Former-Member, my friend , sending you lots of tender hugs

Hello @Faith-and-Hope , @Zoe7 , @Former-Member , @BlueBay

Hi all @Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Former-Member @Former-Member @BlueBay etc

No Zoe, I travel home tomorrow. Still staying with my Dad. Will leave early in the morning and go via cemetary. Hope, all going well, to be home by 4-5pm.

Spent last 2 days cleaning and going thru my dads clothes etc to try to make things easier for him on his own. Swapping wardrobes with mum. No time to go thru all mums stuff this trip. That will be next time despite dad wanting it done now. But I will be back in two weeks and will get together with my sister and sister in law to go through it all then. Nothing of any real value, other than sentimental.

But meantime .. busy busy

Sherry

hugs my @Former-Member and safe travels tomorrow xoxo

feeling sooo nausea after eating lately @Faith-and-Hope , @Zoe7 , @Former-Member , @Former-Member , feeling sooo yukky right now