Far and Away

I am debating whether to head out again for a while and do some more shopping - Bunnings is still open and I could take Toby with me - think I am too tired though and it may be easier to try to do it all tomorrow. I do need to go to the supermarket to get food for Cat but I have enough left of that for a couple of days - so methinks I will settle in at home for the night instead @Faith-and-Hope

Hi @Bimby2 Thanks for the well wishes. Hope you are travelling okay and getting through this time of year okay.

Thinking of you Bella. @Faith-and-Hope

Hoping all is well.

Hi @Faith-and-Hope Hope your day has started well

I managed to get something for Dad today and also got my sister's partner's present. No-one is getting much this year but I know that they know I can't afford it. At least now I have something small for everyone and feel a little better about Christmas. I usually buy something for all the animals in the family too but I can't do that this year either. I will of course get something for Toby and Cat but it will only be treats this year - they really do have enough toys and Cat doesn't really play with hers ...she is too busy sleeping lol

I haven't got anything for myself from Toby and Cat either - but I might do that in the sales if I get paid enough next week. I really need a new pair of sandals because my favourite black ones are very old - that would be a good present from my babies.

I hope you have a good day and everyone is being nice to you - bd's and the big dragon included

Will check in with you again before I head to bed tonight. Sending you soooo much love and huge hugs

Can't stay awake tonight @Faith-and-Hope so will have to say goodnight early. Hope you are doing okay - will post sometime tomorrow - probably after work. Love ya

Hi @Faith-and-Hope No doubt you will read ANC thread but wanted to tell you personally about my day. The great poster hunt continued and I have had an email through this afternoon that some posters have been found but because it isn't many I don't think it will be any of mine - fingers crossed though still.

The principal said some nice things to me today and I wanted you to know because you have been supporting me all through this. She not only thanked me for being very flexible but also said I had amazing resilience. My first thought was - if only she knew - and I felt a wave of several emotions ...one being pride - pride in myself for being me and in a way showing her how it can be done despite all the barriers placed in my way. I know you would be feeling extra proud of me through all this and even though you can't share that with me I feel it inside already. I do truly miss you - especially now that there are some positives to share with you - you and I have been through so much together over the last 2 years and these last 2 weeks have seemed like an eternity to me without you ...I can only hope that you are happy and the environment you are in is not too tricky. I wish you were here for me as much as for you - I know it is so much harder for you than it is for me but I miss you Hon. 😍🌹💐🌷🌸🌺💜💙💚🧡💛

@Faith-and-Hope, last day of work for us tomorrow , we are going to take a 10 day holiday xx

not going anywhere far which is fine with me , just relaxing sounds good to me ,

with mr shaz with anxiety and Bipolar 11 , he is even thinking if he wants to go back to work again

and my mum is still in hospital xx

makes it hard as mr shaz only wants to go to one place for christmas day and only for a couple of hours , it is hard when family members are passing through

oh well see what happens my wonderful friend

good night I am off to bed ,have had a veryyy busy week xx

good night my sister @Zoe7

Didn't post last night (obviously) as I was falling asleep on the couch and so went to bed early @Faith-and-Hope. I hope you had a good day and get some reasonable sleep yourself.

I have my last day at the school today and the great poster hunt continues - lets see if they turn up hey! Not holding my breath but it would be a good way to end my time there if they were to be found.

I spoke to my sister last night and now have an idea of what to get for my final christmas present. I am going shopping with Dad tomorrow then can do my own afterwards. I may have to help my sister as well but she will let me know tonight. I am happy to help seeing as I have all mine nearly done and already wrapped (or in bags) ready for Christmas.

I better go and get ready for work but will fill you in and my day (and the great poster hunt) when I get home later. Love you my angel

So you will probably pick up from elsewhere that I have had a pretty shitty day @Faith-and-Hope Today is definitely one where I wish my forum friend was here to chat to but you aren't and that is adding to my sadness today - super missing you today

There have been tears this afternoon and a lot of empty feelings. I was very disappointed (and upset) that the posters were nowhere to be found and just as much that those teachers I had worked with for years couldn't even offer a goodluck or even seeya. There was no leaving stuff and it made me feel quite insignificant. Feeling very much dispensable and upset with all that I have given to that school for over 10 years and yet none of that was recognised in any way - makes my decision to move all the more important for me now. I can only hope that wherever I go it will be a more supportive (and better run) school and I can fit in and find a place that I belong again.

I know you can't answer (which totally sucks!!!) but I do wish I had you around today - my days aren't the same without you being here and it is days like today that I miss the wisdom and empathy of my angel. Part of me knows that this is selfish because you are doing it all on your own and you can't get support yourself but without you today I am feeling just that little bit more lost. It will no doubt pass but very much missing you more today ....think we both know today was going to be hard whatever happened though.

Love you heaps and miss you terribly. Hoping that everything is alright in your world over there and that you have support from those around you in whatever way you can find. Hugs and hugs and hugs