Far and Away

Hoping you enjoyed yourself @Faith-and-Hope at the art gallery.

Had ECT today.

@Zoe7 glad your working week is over hon, hoping the weekend goes well for you hon 💙💜💙

@Faith-and-Hope @Snowie @Former-Member @Shaz51

Such a very long week I just cannot get my head around my friend's life being seen as so little by the courts - nothing will bring him back but the injustice of it all is so hard to take.This person gets to live his life with very little affecting it - my friend is gone forever ...can't accept that but also can't do anything to change it. I hope he realises what he has taken from us and feels that for the rest of his life - such a coward leaving him where he hit him to die - no words for what I feel for him for doing that

@Snowie So sorry you have some experience with this also - some people just do not deserve to still be here when they have taken those we love with no thought for anyone but themselves!

Had my follow up appointment with the sleep clinic today. The machine is working really well - all my extremely high stats are down significantly but I am still only getting on average 4 hours sleep a night. I have it for 2 more weeks then have to start paying for it either weekly or outright. I cannot really afford either for a while so will have to save for it down the track. My upcoming specialist appointments will cost a lot (will get around 75% back) but need the money for the intial fees before I get that back. ...then I can start thinking about the cost of the machine and saving for that.

13 hours now until I get to pick up my little girl. I will need to leave at 7am as it is a 2 hour drive - so will be heading to bed soon. Have a few more things to set up for her (and a few things still to come) then her room will be ready. Have food, tray, toys, blankets, beds all organised so she will have everything she needs for now. Going to be an interesting weekend introducing her to the other fur babies but will let her get settled tomorrow on her own first. Toby will not like not being able to go into the bedroom so will likely sleep on the couch for a couple of days so Clover can get settled. I am not so worried about Cat as she will do her own thing but Tobes will not like not having all the attention ...see what happens and take it as it comes.

@Zoe7 💜💜

I am so glad you have something to look forward to this weekend. Will be waiting for the photos!!

I hope Tobes is ok with Clover and gets used to her quickly.

Heading to bed early too. Got a full on day tomorrow with kids.

Hope you are asleep by now @Snowie and tomorrow isn't too taxing on you. No surprise here - I can't sleep -a combination of excitement, nervousness and anxiety - so getting as much done now as I can because I suspect there will not be much done for the rest of the weekend bar playing/worrying about my new little girl.

@Faith-and-Hope I am glad you had a nice outing to a gallery today Hon. How are you travelling?

I dozed off while reading your post @Zoe7 ..... 🤭

I am sorry you can't sleep Hon, but I am not surprised. I am so excited for you ❣️ I am glad the new machine is really helping with the sleep issues. I hope the affordability for your own machine happens quickly - that some financial boost comes your way.

It is devastating that your friend's killer seemed to get off so lightly, but I expect there will be life lessons ahead of them that do their own teaching ...... we can't know ..... but I hear your grief in that.

Hugs n hugs Hon. Looking forward to hearing about your kitten cuddles tomorrow ..... 💜🦋🌹

@Snowie I am hoping the ECT is having a positive efffect, and there is some rest for you across the weekend.

Another tiny piece of progress occurred in my legal situation today 🙏 (🎉)

Great news about your little legal win today @Faith-and-Hope ...slowly, slowly you are getting there and I have no doubt you will have more wins than not because s2bx has truly shown his real colours.

Just put together Clover's tower - was going to leave that until she was here but it is done now. Tobes has been 'supervising' lol. He has already pulled Clover's snuggly bed off the chair and curled up in her tent - will have to put up a barrier tomorrow to stop him going in. I have already moved some things so the space in my bedroom on one side is all Clover's 👍 I cannot wait for these next 9 hours to go by - don't think I will sleep much at all tonight - this little fluffball is already spoilt rotten but I would not have it any other way.

My sleep stats were beyond amazing - went from stopping breathing once a minute to only 7 times per hour - that is a really amazing result in just 2 weeks. I will eventually get a machine myself but have to cover some other big bigs first ...and take out insurance for Clover. I get 6 weeks cover for free with her and with all the issues I have had with Cat I really need to get the cover ongoing for Clover straight away. I also need to get some for Tobes before he turns 8 because it gets really expensive after that.

My budget for this month is already stretched getting this little one but it will be worth it ....soooooo excited to bring her home

I hear you about the person that hit my friend but I honestly have no empathy for him - he left him there rather than getting help and that could have made all the difference - so No not one bit of empathy for whatever he may learn from it at all - at the end of the day he ran and my friend is still dead - cannot find it in my heart to feel anything but contempt for him.

I get that, re no empathy for someone who can do that @Zoe7 ..... and I don't blame you. I believe life will deal its own justice over them. I reckon there will be natural justice over my ex and his gf too. People drift apart, but the level of callous cruelty to their behaviour is on a different level. My concern is for you.

Clover will be a gift of healing in your life ..... 🌷💕

I think she will too @Faith-and-Hope I will have 3 beautiful babies to love and whilst that does scare me a bit it is also a blessing. Clover will no doubt bring many changes but also a huge amount of joy - so looking forward to that part. I have her corner of the room all set up now so nothing more to do than pick her up. Tobes won't be happy staying home (yes he does know when it is the weekend and that he shoud be going wherever I am going with me) but need to pick Clover up by herself - it is going to be scary enough for her without an attention seeking puppy along for the ride

I honestly do not know how to get through this around my friend. Everyday I want to call him and just cannot accept that he is gone. I know grief has its own timeline and it has only been 7 months but I still expect a message from him every couple of days as was the norm for us. He had his faults (who doesn't) but I loved him for the kind, caring and wonderful man he was. He helped me restore some faith in people - just as you have - so a massive part of my life is gone forever ....just so sad!

Your s2bx and his bit on the other hand show the other side of humanity - care about nothing and no-one but themselves - mask care to get what they want and be damned everyone else ...cannot wait for the day they get what is coming to them also and that you are free ....holding onto that too for you my angel

The vindictiveness runs to an extreme level @Zoe7 , but even in the course of this small win today, that vindictiveness exposed itself to a wider circle of people. It was disgustingly unnecessary, and there was no way to hide it, or the intent of it. When that happens, others go out if their way to support me and help me find resolutions. That is an unexpected blessing resulting from such ugliness.