I can definitely hear how exhausted you are @Zoe7 ..... and please try not to give way to guilt feelings re your co-teacher ..... cognitively you understand that it's not a balanced scale on any level between what your commitments are and what hers are ..... let her feel as put out as she likes, and you keep working to your experience and knowledge about what has to happen, and when, to get it all done. You've got this Hon - and it's okay to park up the grief for now. Sometimes just staying busy and powering on through is a way of dealing with grief as well.
i remember when I lost my Mum. I was reading novels by one of my favourite authors, which I hadn't known was also one of her favourite authors, until 3 or 4 in the morning, because I just couldn't "go there" in terms of what I was feeling ..... I had to keep out-running that tide of grief to stay within the shallows of it ..... and it was like that for over a year. Then it took another couple of years to gently release ......
It was unexpected. I didn't know how to handle it. You do get tossed around in the surf too, but you get to just rest on that beach too ..... just being ..... just doing things ..... just breathing ......
Leep swimming Hon, and float when you can't swim.
My next round of legal :pile_of_poo: has arrived, and I have given myself the weekend to not open it, because I need to rest. Then I will steel myself, open it, and give myself 3 days to get it off my desktop and back to my legal team. Then it will swing back and forth for another week or so to be refined ...... but the process is resulting in putting it behind me, page by page, matter by matter, event by event .......
I'm doing it. You're doing it. We are all doing it ....... just keep going.
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@Former-Member @Former-Member ..... beautiful matching flowers from different places in forumland ...... look how things happen ❣️ Good to see you both, and thank you for your caring support ...... ❤️💜💕
