Far and Away

I wish you all the best @Snowie with your treatment and potential med changes.
Good Luck!

Thanks very much @oceangirl

Me too..

Thanks @WIP @oceangirl

@Lee82 it might be useful to talk to your mum about your concerns like @oceangirl said.

Even if your Dr can talk to her then she might take it more seriously.

It is hard however when you have to rely on others especially if they are not fully supportive on you hun.

Your welcome @WIP

I'm in Queensland.

I feel for you being in Victoria and hope you're keeping safe.

It's a very challenging time being in Melbourne with this stage 4 lockdown @oceangirl

My mental health has gotten worse because of it.

Dan Andrews is due to make announcements tomorrow if reducing some of the restrictions -

fingers crossed they aren't minimal

I hear you @WIP

I am sorry the COVID 19 situation has impacted you so much.. But you're not alone and many people are struggling. I know that probably does not help you though. I read your post about the hospital situation, that must be tough, I gathered you didn't go into hospital. Did you do your med changes at home? I just hope he doesn't lift the restrictions too much because I know its tough but you don't want to go to another level 4 lockdown. Its not easy decisions to make, and the consequences of these decisions. We are lucky in this country, that the government are trying there best to keep us safe. That is there no 1 priority.

Yes, I've done the med changes at home and it's been really tough. I live on my own and not allowed visitors. Most days I spend the whole day just crying and trying somehow to stay calm in my mind, but negative thoughts run ramped. Some days I just want to give up, as I'm not improving

@oceangirl

@Lee82 Sorry Hon - fell asleep. I do know that talking to your mother is not an option for you from previous experiences you have described. I also know from your time here over the last few months that this break is really needed for you. Whilst I cannot give advice or make that decision for you I also know that life is incredibly hard for you and you really need a 'reset'. If going to hospital will provide tht then please look at that option seriously. You were putting it off previously to get through the appointments with your son so now that help is underway then the road is much clearer for you to take the hospital option. The consequences later on with your mother should not be the biggest concern right now however as something does need to change for you quickly to help you find a little peace in your life. Life is a massive struggle right now for you and maybe hospital is what you need to help . Your children need their mum around but you also need to be in a better place to care for both you and them. I have managed along my journey to stay out of hospital but I also have a wonderful team around me that helped me when I needed it - including visits to my GP every day as well as daily phone calls or text messages from her and my psych - I could not have done it without them and I also needed my fur babies around me so that actually helped me more than hindered me. I did not have anyone that would have looked after them for an extended period of time - no-one I could call o to do that so in a way you are lucky to have your Mum that would do that - I certainly hear the anxiety around that though and the likely consequences from it but maybe if you do go into hospital you will be stronger to deal with those consequences once it is over. A @Lee82 being in a better emotional and mental place is capable of anything because we have seen your strength in dealing with the most horrible of times living with MI along your journey here already - so I have faith and hope for you Hon.

I hear you @WIP You know if you're struggling- hospital could still be an option, even if its short term. At least you would have people around you in hospital. You could phone to ask - if you're allowed to walk around the facilty. Of course that decision is yours to make. You could get support in there from the staff and Drs.

I'm thinking about it @oceangirl

I haven't been able to get out of bed the past 3 days & just cried most of the day. Thinking of how I don't want to live any more.

Im about to take my night time meds so I can sleep and not think or feel any more pain today.

thanks for listening & your help