Far and Away

@Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Snowie @Sans911 and ofthers passing through...

I have put all the furniture back aside from the small table which is still drying. Toby is happy he has his bed and toys back in the loungeroom and has been playing with them and jumping and rolling on his bed already. He has also done his mad run around the house and is now asleep on the couch. I also washed the wooden blind today so the loungeroom is the cleanest it has ever been 👍 It is amazing having the furniture back and knowing that there is only the window and doorway to paint. The doorway I can do anytime but the window will have to wait until next summer as I need to take it out to fix and then paint.

I did not sleep at all last night but got a few hours today. Still having nightmares though so have kept busy despite how tired I am. I took my medication early tonight - plus a little extra - so hoping that helps me sleep tonight and I am not woken like I have been.

Sorry I have not been around today but I needed a little space from anymore possible triggers - the last 2 days have been really hard and some of those old thoughts have been in my head. I will be okay but definitely need sleep tonight.

Back to work tomorrow and that is probably a good thing - get my mind off things and be distracted by work then the enjoyable part with the kids during the week. We do not know how it is all going to look, who will be on class when nor how many kids we will each have until tomorrow. I think once that is all set out for us then it will be a little easier. I am trying not to worry about work as it will be what it is - just need to adapt as best we can. I am lucky to be part of a great team though so I know we will all support each other to work through it all.

I have not read much tonight so do not know how everyone is - again sorry for that but I needed to do that for myself ...so I hope you have all had a little light in your day and I send you all both hugs and love

Thank you @Former-Member Kinda needed that hug tonight so gratefully accepted Hon

...and thank you for the well wishes for tomorrow - it is going to be interesting to see how it is all going to come together - and I fully expect some of my team members to be very stressed about it. I am luckier than some that online stuff doesn't phase me but it will be very different having to do both classroom and online learning. Just got to get through tonight and hopefully sleep.

I think those of us who know you hun completey understand, so no need to explain or apologise. It is nice to see you. I hope there was nothing I have said that was part of your triggers and I am truly sorry if that is the case. You know what is the right thing to do for your self care. I hope things settle down soon.

You obviously don't have a public holiday tommorow. When do you have Anzac Day PH or does it not happen?

@Zoe7

No Hon - nothing you have said at all @Sans911 and it is certainly no-one's fault either - just my own vulnerabilities at the moment and that has been combined with some other triggers over the last few days. I explained it last night to @Faith-and-Hope as a perfect storm - all coming together at once unexpectedly and has set off the flashbacks and nightmares again so been resisting sleep also - which as you know does not help ...it is a catch 22.

We don't have a public holiday for ANZAC day if it falls on a weekend so no public holiday tomorrow. We do have a student free day for planning though so no kids until Tuesday.

How are you travelling? (if you want to answer)

I'm off to bed, very exhausted and badly in need of sleep. Its been good to catch up with all of you tonight.

Good night @Sans911 @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 😴💤 and thank you 🙏💕

Good night @oceangirl ... I hope you are feeling better than you were early in the evening. Catch you another time. xx

Thank you for that gorgeous hug @Former-Member ...... 💜🌸

So good to see you @Zoe7, and I am glad you slept for a bit. I am sorry it's still so tough for you, and you @Sans911 ....

Senibg a hug back to all of you ......

I understand @Sans911 as I often do that too with some people - and of course you know what I would say so I am not going to Personally I would think any support you can give to our beautiful @Faith-and-Hope at the moment would be very much welcomed 👍💖

Your GP must be worried about you Hon - and if she is willing to take the time to check on you then try to receive that support - she sounds like a very caring person and would not be doing that if she didn't care Hon.

Gorgeous Mr A 😺 Cat has spent most of the day in her room but now the loungeroom is back to normal she should venture out more often. Tobes is certainly happy to have it back to normal - I have missed his crazy nightime runs so it gave me a little lift tonight to see that again.

ANy plans for the upcoming week - I did read earlier that you have had a lot of disappointments this last week ...people just suck sometimes Hon

Goodnight sweetheart. I hope you sleep well @Former-Member