Far and Away

Hi @Former-Member 👋💕

I hear you .... I am feeling the border closure between me and some of my baby dragons too ..... hopefully it won't be for very long, if we can all work at flattening the COVID-19 curve through these isolations.

Two other baby dragons live here, but while we are self-isolating, WH is not ..... and his "bit" has young kids @Zoe7 .... didn't want to mention that until my baby dragons all knew, but clearly that's another shocker for them that they are sensitive about ......

And guess how I found out ?? From D2 ..... 🤬

I wish the truth would hurry up and come out @Zoe7, but it has its own timeframe.

I have to keep taking the baby steps to get through each day, and wait on the outcomes.

Sending love to you all here @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 @Shaz51 @Adge @utopia @Meowmy

@Shaz51 just saw your post here from yesterday (I think) - I'm not around quite as much and tend to catch up on the forums in the first part of each day. So sorry to hear what's going on for you. So many people you care for and things breaking down wouldn't be helping at all. I wish I could be there to help you. Must be hard to self-isolate in the circumstances, you can only do what you can do. So if you have to go out, which you obviously do, maybe it's time to use a mask and gloves to protect yourself. Hope your headache is gone today and you're feeling a bit better physically. Take care lovely xx

@Faith-and-Hope and @Zoe7 I don't say much here but I do follow along and I always love the way you are supporting each other, while looking after family (F&H) and kids (Zoe) as well as you do.

You are all legends in my eyes xoxo

Thanks so much @eth ..... although I think it becomes a matter of getting on with things, because what else can you do ? I have so much admiration for everyone here who gets up and puts one foot after another across the day. Some days will feel more successful than others, which sorta fall into the "just having a day" category .... but that's allowed ..... just having a day ....

I echo what @eth has said @Shaz51 ..... so important to take care of yourself with your big health issues, and only go out if you really need to. It can be so hard when you are used to looking after others so much. Hugs. Take care of you ..... 💐

I have to assume at this stage that they are not his off-spring @Former-Member ..... but anything is possible amid all his lies and deceit ...... it's all part of his complete change of character and value system. He is no longer recognisable, at any level, as the husband of our youth ..... and yes, forgiveness in this instance means releasing him from my life ..... much easier said than done with kids in the middle, as you well know ......

I also have to keep reminding myself that he is really unwell, but future disgnosis or not, there is absolutely no going back for us now. The hardest part of this at the moment, aside from all the ugly legals, and having him and his "bit" all over my daughter, is watching him "wee" all over our marital and family history, trying to destroy all the value in what we once had ..... but that is just another hallmark of his illness that I have to bear up under until it passes.

The more he does this, the more ridiculous he makes himself, and his new partner, in the process. He is grandfather aged. I don't know what she is thinking either, or whether she is aware of his massive C/S habit yet ..... but that is not my problem anymore, thank God. She will be nursing him in his advancing age, and all his ED behaviours and mood disorders .... unless she bales on him ..... also not my problem, but I don't envy her in any way. I don't think she knows what she has taken on.

I feel so much for your loss, and yes, grief in other forms, including public and global grief, will always impact that as well ...... so important to keep taking care of yourself.

@Faith-and-Hope , "just keep swimming" What choice do we have indeed. But you first introduced me to this concept (apart from Dorey of cause), you helped me so much my early days on the forums as Tawney. Just keep swimming, one day at a time, some days disconnected and going through the motions, but press on we do, we must.

Oh dear, having said that, I realise I really must get up out of bed lol

You have a good day, you and all here. I really must go, attend to Beautiful furbaby, snuggling up so intently ATM, and tend to myself I guess. Stay strong, and Beautiful, from the inside out 💐

Hello and hugs @Former-Member , @Faith-and-Hope , @eth , @Zoe7 , @utopia , @Adge , @Meowmy , @BlueBay

at home only going out when we need too @@

But Still no car

Lot of rain here

Doing some bookwork

Thinking of you all xxxxxx

Hi @Adge behind ✓ button. Thought of you looking at bird pics this AM. Take care 🙏