Far and Away

@oceangirl

I did my first initial TMS last November. It went for 4 weeks, 5 times per week for 20 sessions.

I finished this round of TMS today. I did it twice daily(most of the time) and did 30 sessions all up this time.

Everyone is different and it affects everyone differently of course. It has not helped me with my anxiety or sleep. This is because both my anxiety and sleep are hugely affected by my C-PSTD. I have regular flashabcks and nightmares which affect my sleep and anxiety levels. I know that is some people it has helped with their anxiety and sleeping. I knew going into TMS that it wouldn't fix all my problems but I still needed to give it a go.

TMS has not taken away my SH and SI thoughts, but they have "dulled" the thoughts. My mood has improved in the sense that I don't feel so worthless or useless. I guess you could say I feel a bit more hopeful about the future. TMS can take awhile to work. I expect my mood to continue to improve in the coming weeks. When I had my first inital treatment it wasn't until I was into my 4th week that I started feeling the effects. I don't know if I will have more TMS but if my mood plummets again then I would try TMS again. I still worry that it won't help me enough and I know it will not get me back to what I was like before my mental health declined. But if it improves my mood even by 10% then would say it was worth it.

I am happy to share my experience with you @oceangirl if it helps you in anyway.

@Faith-and-Hope Missed you by a fair bit last night Hon - headed to bed pretty soon after I posted. It wasn't a great night though which sucks - and the kids were really hard work today - little energiser bunnies again and I was honestly too tired to deal with them. It was school photo day so that got them all excited ...and also the first day for home readers across the school so we had that to organise too.

After school our usual Tuesday professional development (which went overtime ). I still had some things to do in the class also so a pretty late afternoon for me again. I came home, fed the babies, had dinner and then headed out again to the supermarket. I am officially broke again until next Wednesday but should have enough food to get through

Finally home and can sit and relax for a little bit. I still have my reports to read through and a little organising to do for tomorrow but everything else can wait ....just too exhausted again tonight so heading to bed as early as possible.

How was your day? Did you have your appointment today?

@Shaz51 Such a bummer about your computer my sister. We miss you wehen you are not here

I am missing being here too @Zoe7 , @Faith-and-Hope , @Snowie , @oceangirl , @Former-Member

Soo much going on, with mum

My appts, car, computer

The kitchen got flooded by the fridge -- looks like a leap at the back of the fridge

Looks like a cyclone is forming this week

Oh dear @Shaz51 just one thing after another for you at the moment

Sending you much love and some squishy hugs

Awww loving the hugs my sister @Zoe7

Sending you some too and I am with you even when I am not here xoxo

@Shaz51 💛🧡💚💙💜

Hi @Zoe7 🦋💕 @Shaz51 @Snowie @oceangirl @Former-Member ..... anyone else around .....

I crashed out early last night in the couch, in the middle of watching something with D3 (daughter 3) and she ended up helping me off to bed .... still so tired, and awake early ..... still a pair with that @Zoe7 .....

Yes, I got to my meeting yesterday and the changes that are happening are progressive in a sense, although there is still a lot of minkey-business going on that needs to be addressed, one way or another.

Keep swimming @Zoe7 .... you're getting there ❣️

I am glad to see you supporting @oceangirl with your experiences of TMS @Snowie. There is a lot of generosity in sharing how you feel about it and what you feel the results are for you so far ..... 💖

Hope the jigsaw puzzling is going well for you @Former-Member .... sending some gentle hugs your way too 💕

@Shaz51, hang in there Hon ..... I hope your computer issues resolve soon ❣️

Good afternoon @Faith-and-Hope I crashed out early too and was awake at silly o'clock. I did get another couple of hours sleep but it really messed with my morning. So much to get done today also before our kids had their athletics carnival this afternoon. That was not good for me - standing for a couple of hours really affected my back so meds and rest tonight. Luckily our after school meeting was cancelled as a couple of the teachers in our team were away - but it is now to be tomorrow afternoon so it will be a long day as I have no time off during the day as I did today. I will have to go in super early again to get things done ...the positive is the reports are done - finished reading through and editing them after school today 👍

I am so glad you had your meeting yesterday and have that support - you need that more than ever now with all the monkey-business going on. Stay strong Hon - you have truth and us on your side all the way

Lots to get done again tonight but I am ticking things off as I go - I anticipate by this weekend I will have most done but it will take a big effort to catch up. Then no doubt I will have another big list next week but most of the bigger things will hopefully be done in the next few days. This weekend will be a big marking and planning weekend so I am prepared for the remaining 4 weeks of the term ....I love the kids, the school and my job but it will be good to get to the holidays and catch up completely.

It can be like that when we fall behind @Zoe7 .... playing catch-up for the rest of the term. My year is going to be like that .... with study, support around the kids, and legals to juggle ..... 🙁 .... still, onwards, upwards .....

You are sounding proud of the achievements you are making, and that is making me really smile ❣️

Hi to anyone else around 👋

awww a smiley @Faith-and-Hope - that makes me smile Hon 💕😘

Not so much proud but feeling a little less swamped - not drowning anymore but managing to just keep my head above water ....I can see this will be the case for most of the rest of this term but it is a little lighter in my world at the moment and that can only be a good thing.

You certainly have a lot to juggle - way more than I do - but you are dealing with it all in the only way I know you to do so - with that dignity, grace and forethought that we all know for. Onwards and upwards (in whatever way that happens) for both of us. Super proud to call you my friend and super proud of the way you are handling everything