Eden1919Senior Contributor
Rant
sorry i just needed somewhere to rant for a bit. i am so sick of having to get my depot all the time i just want it to stop and i am sick of the side effects and i am sick of the pain and i am sick of it all like i just need a break for a while even idk but they will never let me come off it.
i am also sick of my weird sleeping patterns that i keep trying to fix only to end up making it worse like i just want to sleep normally for a while and i am so over being exhausted 24/7 and even when i do sleep i still wake up tired although that is the meds fault anyway i am sick of it.
i want to scream but idk why i just feel weird and not right and agitated and everything is a mess and i am struggling to take care of myself and i want to do better i do but it is so hard and it feels impossible and i am struggling just to keep myself above water idk everything is just not right and it isnt just one thing it is everything all together that is making me feel so on edge and i just want to feel settled but i cant seem to do that either. anyway sorry for the rant i just needed to let it out somewhere.