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I hear you @Eden1919 . I hear how frustrating it can be yet until the time comes for another option, it looks like things have to be?

I hope there will be an alternative for you in the future. I hear the side effects can be terrible. Yet I also hear you have tried other things which make it even worse.

Sitting with you.

Thanks @Appleblossom and @tyme they wont reduce the dose either i have asked them about that too. i think i am very stuck.

@Eden1919 Feeling stuck on such a serious issue is no good, but I hope, it might be only about slowing down the time frame, and that in the future you will have more options. Post on here as you need....

Here for you ...

Gentle hugs

Apple

@Appleblossom thanks

Wow. What an interesting conversation. Truly. I have witnessed a few people that have socially benefited from these clearly controversial shots, but always at the cost of their overall awareness and strength in the community.

Personally, I have somehow managed to avoid such mind adjusting poison. I do believe it occurs when you offer yourself to mental health, for assessment; they seem to take that as some form of power-grabbing and send you home, if you have one. 🙂

I have have bad experiences on other medications that have apparently been constructed to alleviate what I perceive as fact.. according to the great minds, but, never really approved of the side effects.

And, overall, when my version of reality fits perfectly with my perception, with all senses.. other than advising myself to stf up only 7 times a day.. I really don't think it's me mate.

I even recall one professional advising that if ANY drug was going to work for me, it would have by now. Well, thanks Doc, It was obviously never ME that needed curing. Lol

So, I admit, I am well aware that sometimes I'm not fully aware, but, at least at a later date, I'm aware that I was not.. even if for briefest of moments. It assists me to re-evaluate and guides my approach. Because, I absolutely assure you, some of my regular thoughts really do worry me.. the other me.. the control.

I am also quite well aware, that a lot of people on mental health orders simply do not require to be. And quite a lot should be. It is your ability or inability to know the difference by studying the effects around you, and then comprehending those effects that tells you whether you need to walk into an assessment office, to get sent home.. or just go grab a beer and wait for the order.

Such is this timeline. It is not their fault. Do you honestly think it's easy deciphering which parts of our childhood were direct or indirect programming? 98% of people, mental health professionals or any other human.. if you take a deep an honest look back at your childhood and truly consider all the information your senses were "allowed" to receive from apparent reputable sources,.. you would shiver.

Anybody remember Brum/Broom? Lol

Peace and love humans...

ugh i am so mad my support worker was supposed to take me to get my depot today and they cancelled on me and i was up sick all night last night with food poisoning so i am exhausted today and was so tired i didnt think it was a good idea to drive anyway i called my cm and she was like you have to come in tomorrow morning at 9am and 9am is when i am deepest asleep because my sleep is so fucked and i honestly dont know if i will be able to wake up then but she said if i didnt she is going to call the police and have them take me to hospital for failing to comply with my treatment order because my depot is already overdue and idk what to do i am already so exhausted and to have to be up so early well i might as well not go to sleep at all and just have been up for 3 days idk what to do and i am so incredibly angry.

Oh hun @Eden1919 ,

I'm so sorry to hear this has happened. It sounds like it was out of you control. At least you phoned your CM!

I hope you get some rest now and hopefully you can be there in time.

I'm hearing you. I hear the frustration and the anger. It is completely valid.

Hugs, tyme

@tyme thanks, i cant rest now though because i am too hungry but i have no food and i was supposed to get some with my support worker but that didnt happen either and i literally have only one thing i can possibly eat so i have to save it for later and i havent been able to get to sleep before 5am for the past few weeks and like i will have to wake up at 7:30am so that is only 2 hours sleep and i might as well not bother but that means i will be up hungry all night and ugh everything is just completely fucked idk what to do not like i have any good options i am just so so so angry like this wasnt my fault i was supposed to go today but they cancelled and didnt have a replacement how is that my fault but i am the one being punished for it.

Your post has been a real eye-opener for me. I know I have battled with this in the past, but I can see more clearly how that if even one support worker cancels, it can affect whether someone eats or not. In other situations I've witnessed, a cancelled support worker makes the difference whether someone can get out of bed or not @Eden1919

It is so sad to see that this can even happen to humans in the 21st century.

Is your support worker through a company? Can they send someone else in the future?

Please take care. If I could, I'd send you some food.

I'm so so sorry to hear this has happened.

@tyme thanks, my support worker is through a company but they said they had no one to send as a replacement this whole situation is just a huge fucked up mess and i am too exhausted to deal with it i cant keep up with everything i am struggling to just keep my head above water i cant keep living like this i cant. (i am not suicidal or anything just exasperated).