Just checking in.

I understand that overthinking brain @CheerBear I often see not only all possible scenarios but make some up myself lol It makes it hard when you do really want something so much but sometimes the cons of a situation outweigh the pros and that is where you really need to go on your gut as well.

Hey @CheerBear . Good to 'see' you. Big venty posts always feel like it’s better out than in.

I honestly can’t imagine anyone juggling what you have going on without crashing. Part of me wishes siblings could step up to the plate a bit more too, although I know that’s easier said than done.

I get all that you are going through because ive felt that so much too. A loving family has never been enough for me, which is terrible. I have felt that guilt of why can’t that be enough LOTS. So many other people find that enough, why can’t it be enough for me, what is wrong with me has been my line of thought often. I need to feel a purpose beyond mum, daughter, sister too. The strange thing is that I think that my family want that for me too. I know my kids want me to have a life outside them. I love my kids to the moon and back but I don’t have those really strong maternal instincts. I have a feeling that your kids will want that for you too.

I wish i had had a magic wand for this one. I know you are caught in a time warp at the moment which is so frustrating, exhausting, and guilt fueled but I believe you’ll get through this still (possibly with much crashing and bashing 😘). I believe you’ll do it looking back and knowing there was some strange semblance of balance because I’ve learned you are a pretty good juggler of all things messy and hard. And so what if you drop the balls from time to time, every good juggler does, it’s what makes you human.

Well thats my pep talk from someone who wishes they had more crash and bash about them, I see it as a struggle but more often a strength 🤗.

I'll come back for the image @Faith-and-Hope

I love that you have wrapped yourself in a garden Hon - brings a little colour to you world and hopefully a few smiles as you feel that garden around you. It is super cool that you have your butterfly ring on as well - each time you look at it you can feel me with you - loving you, caring for you and holding you close to my heart

@Faith-and-Hope , @Zoe7 too

@Faith-and-Hope I hope your day/rest your of weekend goes as well as it can.

@Zoe7 Thinking of you too knowing it all starts again tomorrow. Hoping it’s a gentle start.

@Teej @Faith-and-Hope @CheerBear Received an email from the assistant principal (who is acting principal this week until our new principal comes for the term) - we get a general overview of the week every Sunday - she finshed the email by quoting something I said about the school in an email I sent at the end of last term to everyone - it was so nice to read and just re-inforced what I had said - it is such a supportive and caring environment to work in - just a shame that it might be my last term there.

morning @Sans911, I see you there 😘.

that is awesome @Zoe7 . I’m so glad you are there. I’ll be hoping they find a position for you there next term.

I think everyone in my life - here, family, work itself all hopethe same but I also know the reality and the department will put me where they will - there is very little control I have over that @Teej but we can all keep our fingers (and everything) crossed 🤞

I have a feeling speaking in images is my best form of communication this morning 😄.

And no peeing until then, right ??!

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