Just checking in.

Turned into a bit of a struggle evening here @Teej. Technology fails all over the place during my homework session .... probably stuff you could have worked out for me ..... :face_with_rolling_eyes:🙁 .... but I managed with some of it. It took forever though, so I ended up staying up late ..... and I think my mr.’s flight back was delayed, cos he has just come in and woken me up because he can’t be quiet, or leave things till morning ..... grrrr ..... can hear him clanking around in the kitchen now, probably waking up all the kids as well 😔

Mr. has been trying to organise married ones here for Easter, but he is then putting his foot through it by trying to force ones that don’t get along well to share the same too-close-for-comfort space .... and it’s likely that they will pull out 😥

I wanted to get back here earlier tonight, but phone calls were happening in amongst the tech fails and gahhh .... just hoped you weren’t thinking my response was a brush-off. @CheerBear has been helping you to untangle things so well. She has been a bit absent tonight so I hope all is okay .... for both of you ....

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💐💕 @Sans911

Hi @Teej 💜

Its ok @Faith-and-Hope . I was a bit confused by your response but also massively insecure. I really don’t want to be the responsibility of anyone. I know that is phrased badly but I’m tired. I suspected you’d gotten carried away with you art studies. Easter sounds like a minefield. Mine is shaping up to be that too.

@Sans911 I know you have lots going on too. I hope you’ve found a way to be kind to yourself.

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Can’t you sleep @Faith-and-Hope? . Please don’t stay up on my behalf. My stuffcan wait until I get up the guts to write it again. It’s notgoing anywhere fast :face_with_rolling_eyes:

Hugs @Teej ❣️.... and for your munefield too.

I understand the “don’t want to be responsibility” comment, but it’s more about a natural heart-care amongst friends, something that I know has left scars before, but the relationships we have here exist outside the ones that are in the past.

I have kept company with a bar of chocolate .... there were nuts in it so it wasn’t all chocolate .... and it was in part because I was hungry, having been woken up after midnight (like gremlins ??) .... and the kitchen is massively out-of-bounds with mr. doing his 1am food prep :face_with_rolling_eyes:.

I ate the whole bar ..... 🤭

munefield = minefield .... ^^^

@Teej

Although moonfield is probably appropriate to where I am at tonight .... lol

I am thinking that you might have dozed off @Teej , and my eyes are starting to roll.. I will look for you tomorrow ....

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Calling by dropping off a big bucket of ❤ @Teej, @Faith-and-Hope, @Sans911 and anyone who might pass by.

Yesterday was a bit tricky in my world too. My busy brain wanted to run into overwhelmed land and I had to fight to keep that from getting too huge. A few things collided and it gets difficult for me when that happens. One of those things was a smash from the reality bus in that unwell person is looking unwell-er. How unwell will be uncovered soon and for now we don't know and can only hope it isn't as serious as it appears. For them it is a matter of 'when' not 'if' and the news was a hurtful reminder of that yesterday. I struggled with sleep last night and had a visit from one of my oldest friends - insomnia. It seemed he threw himself a big welcome home party after being away for a few days 😏 Lucky I'm well practiced at rolling with caffeine and adrenaline after his all night antics.

Today is a bit bonkers for me. I have the interview, my psych, a littler one returning home and a support worker appointment. I was tempted to cancel the interview thing I've been working on. Plagued with self-doubt, feeling angry that this stuff isn't as easy as it used to be for me, getting frustrated with how much organising and effort day-to-day life with kids involves - it seemed too much and a default 'don't even try' attmpted to kick in. Deep inside I know that if I can push through the scary of stepping outside of my comfort zone, I can do this and do it well. Living with a banana brain and a circus life has worn me down at times but it has also taught me a lot about myself and others and how much we may be capable of if we can keep on keeping on. This adventure is important to me. It's meaningful and purposeful and would be a massive step for me (I think it already is).

*⬆️ That may be me psyching myself up a bit there 👍😉*

@Faith-and-Hope I am sending you big hugs for the challenges you're facing with Mr. I'm so sorry you are going through what you are. As always, your patience and compassion shine

@Teej I hope sleep or rest happened for you and you were able to switch off your busy brain last night. So often there are things in your posts and your sharing that I can relate to. With you and here for you (even when I don't look like I'm here). Mega ❤ Random question - do you have Netlfix? I've been watching some shows that have had me thinking of you at times. Ricky Gervais "After Life" is one. I super badly want someone to debrief with

@Sans911❤ to you, just cos. Any chance you have Netflix? 😉

I'm off for the day now, armed with cool shoes (heels 😁) and a secret pair of unicorn socks that only I know are there. Hope there is some good in the day for all 👋