Just checking in.

Hi @CheerBear, @Teej, @Shaz51, @Zoe7 and all,

I really need to head to bed soon, as I only had three broken hours of sleep over last night and this morning. But here I am for a bit of a debriefing on my day.

A big one, including being out for a few hours on buses and at the hospital for physio. An errand at the chemist at the big shopping centre on the way home, which took quite a while as the place is huge and the chemist a fair way from the bus stop.

Before going out, a big lot of stuff for my video projects. The kind that is not actually making them, but organising and communicating. I'm pretty excited (a bit too excited) about all that's happening with this at the moment. Each day I seem to rise to these peaks of it, then try slow breathing to bring down my hyped nerves. The controlled breathing helps me find a semblance of balance, but I wouldn't say it's anything truly stable and steady just now.

Aside from all that, phone calls with Mum, and with her local council down south there, as part of the ongoing project of organising some social support activities for her next year. Some other stuff too, including collapsing blankly in the armchair in between bursts of activity, for needed chunks of recovery time.

Good to read your posts from earlier today, even though I'm not around forumland much at the moment, and so a bit absent of reply.

Hugs to anyone who needs or wants them, and yays for good things happening too.

p.s. @Teej, just saw a message in my inbox from you. Haven't read it yet. Will post this rave and see what you said!

Okay just read your post, @Teej, and I see you've deleted it. All okay?

It’s ok @Mazarita. I’ve sos on my struggle thread. Good to read things going well

Please don’t worry. @Mazarita You don’t need my drama now. I hope you sleep

Good morning, @Teej, @CheerBear, @outlander and anyone around at this early time.

@Teej, hope sleep was kind and you are feeling better this morning. Hoping that you are still asleep, but thinking of you as the sky turns a deep blue, and the birds are soloing to each other, and to me, in the quiet new day.

@outlander, saw that you were online not so long ago. Have only caught up with fragments of what's been going on for you over past couple of days, but can see things haven't been easy. Early morning hugs for now or when you later collect them.

@CheerBear, wonderful to read of your awesome proud night with big. A scholarship, that's awesome! Will that make it a bit easier on your circumstances? Either way, it sounds great. Love the story about the calculator/phone. Here if you are around and feel like a chat this morning.

@CheerBear, good to see you in real time again this morning.

So happy the scholarship will give you all some help with expenses. That's a fair bit covered by it, awesome!

Yes, this busy silly season, with its bursts of excited mental energy interspersed with chunks of 'collapse', I'm enjoying it, even if it feels a bit off centre in its rhythms.

Had a lovely evening out two nights ago too, the birthday of close friend's brother. He was in such a happy mood on his birthday, so sweet to see and be around. Their niece was there too, a young woman I have a bit of a special connection with in some ways, though we see each other only occasionly. I've known her since she was about 10 or 11, now early 20s. A really good feeling to have a mutual fondness with a younger woman I've seen grow. Also a friend of friend's brother who has just moved here from Sydney. Have met him once before and we were glad to catch up again. There were cheek kisses and hugs all around. I appreciate these people, easy to be around.

About three hours sleep so far overnight. Will get some more before too long. Seem to managing fairly well on much less sleep than usual lately. That can be a bit of a warning sign with bipolar and, as I've said before recently, I may be a bit elevated at the moment. But doesn't feel too far gone, so I'm just enjoying it while it lasts.

Today I need to work out the bus routes to the Transport Office, to renew my driver's licence. Was at the doctors earlier this week to get a medical form signed off for it. First time I've declared my bipolar to the licence body. Did it mainly because of the medications I take and the remote possibility that I could be in an accident that is my fault. My mind rests easier knowing that I've declared any risk factors. Less likelihood of trouble that way. Probably am being overzealous, as I don't even drive these days, nor have a car. But I want to retain my licence anyway, for emergencies, and the future possibility of getting back to it again.

What's happening with you today?

Sorry, @CheerBear. I got mixed up and thought mine was the last post in our conversation! Early morning brain a bit confused.

While that was (not) happening, I sorted out the trip to the Department of Motor Transport. Took quite a bit of working out! Have now found that I can make it just one bus ride, though it only goes every hour. Sorted out time to go and return, yay me with the buses these days.

Hearing you on the funny relationship with driving. I am actually phobic about it these days. As a fortunate side effect, I am actually happy now I don't have a car or want to drive. Much less expense this way. It would make my life much more difficult financially if I had one. And, because a car is not crucial to my life, I enjoy the better environmental aspects of using public transport, and also just getting out and about in a public context within this community.

Your day sounds like a good one too.