Just checking in.

Looks like you were up really early @oceangirl. Were you having trouble sleeping ?

Are you heading back home today @Former-Member ?

Hey @Former-Member. Maybe put today down as the packing day. Try not to get caught up in the drama. Today is just for you to pack....one job. Then you can say tomorrow is just for travel and try to get up early and go. I'm a lot like you with this. I find I can never pack and go in one day and when I do I leave at ridiculous times. It's ok. You've only got one goal....to get home safe so break it down into small parts. Sending hugs 💜😊🤗

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope I love the picture too

I am actually not surprised he has an eating disorder just by the way you describe him and also his personality make up too would make him susceptible to having an eating disorder. I can see how it has developed over time and it makes perfect sense how you describe it. I do know you worry about his health and the impact it is having on him long term.

I do have some understanding of what you are going through and WH mindset because we might be similar to certain degree if that makes sense. I too have OCD traits and perfectionism. I know it must be hard on you and it must impact everyone in the family through him being absent and emotional unavailable because of his obsession with exercise and food.

When I had my eating disorder it started at the end of year 12 and it lasted for about two years but I was heavily involved in sport and I surfed 6 hours at a time and I was very restrictive of my food. I never really saw that at the time but I do now. I think I was going though a tough period at that time. I think I do understand a little of what is happening with WH.

I just hope we all your sakes it does not take something really serious for him to realize what he is doing for him to make changes or more importantly for him to see he as a problem. I wish I could suggest something to help and any case you have probably thought of it anyway.

I am glad I have changed programs too - I am not very creative I do enjoy coloring in and writing but that is not what the program is about and plus I was getting really bored being there I was not very engaged in the program. I think I had too much time to think.

I hope appleblossom enjoys her volunteering too.

@oceangirl .... that has been the overarching concern, that it would take a serious health crisis to take him off the trajectory. I keep being told that what he is doing is not sustainable, but he has managed to sustain it for 7 years !! Albeit he has tweaked things constantly to keep himself under the medical and social radar .... but until we disengaged from him on an emotional level and stepped back from his regimen, the aggression that was built into prioritising his regimen was too much to cope with.

Now we are just sad for him, and waiting for some sort of life circumstances to channel him into awareness that it is an eating disorder, and it is controlling him.

I hope these things are not triggering for you ....

You are obviously still very physically active, and you have mentioned visits to an exercise physiologist, in relation to recovery from injury, I think ? So you found the balance eventually ....

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Hi @Faith-and-Hope

I hear you !!!

No its not triggering me at all.

I had EP because of my health and also because of my premature menopause and because I had endometrosis and from there I put on weight and actually let me health slip away for some time. I need to make some changes and needed some support to do it and plus I thought it would help with my Major depression. I think seeing an EP is the best thing I have done for myself and leaning towards maybe going down this path for me in terms of uni- I would love to be able to help people with chronic disease and people with MI. I think a lot of my depression is around me putting on weight and my treatment for endo.

It must be very diffcult for you and not sure how it affects the home life but it must have been quite stressful for you. Have you thought about getting some therapy for yourself and see where that takes you even if you just went for a few sessions to see if that might help. Whats does WH do day to day?

I am no where as physical active as I once was manily because of the depression I think. The exercise is helping me with this and it will be part of my wellness plan. Thanks for all your support @Faith-and-Hope

Are you okay @Faith-and-Hope

I sense something is not quite right with you atm you didn't seem your bubbly self.

I hope with your tribe that you are also looking after you too.

You are looking after your health too your health is important to me but more importantly to yourself.

The cricket is on atm and your home team is in the final- I will let you know who wins.

Our household has come down with a horrible flu @oceangirl .... lots of night coughing and muscle aches and pains. I am tired, but okay .... thanks for asking.

WH was the first to come down with this thing, and it stopped the exercise component of his regimen, which meant, according to his e.d. mentality that he could only have a pitiful amount of salad .... after three days he was feeling so sick he broke regimen and ate chicken soup for the last two days. He attempted to go jogging yesterday morning, but tha only lasted 5mins .... he also went to the gym yesterday, but I doubt he got far there either ....

Last night and this morning he walked for an hour, which meant he was only doing half the distance, but I imagine he is champing at the bit to resume the regimen.

We sold our business 7 years ago, which is when this e.d. concoction replaced the BED e.d. he had before. Now we are self-employed and he works a few hours a day in between the demands of his regimen ....