Life's dice are clearly loaded

Hello @Historylover I'm so sorry you are not doing well today. I know you have been trying your best for ages and have had to put up with so much rubbish from people which has impacted on your life and your future choices.

I wish there was something I could say to comfort you, or to suggest options for your future. Its not easy and life can be serious business at times. Is there anything you can do today to shift the energy youre feeling? I know it can get stifling when we feel this way.

I am extending to you my love and hope that you feel better soon! ❤️ I don't know if this is appropriate but I will leave it anyway in the hope that you feel a bit better. You have our support on SANE and you are a very valued member of our online community.

Please don't feel down you have so much to offer others. If you need to chat we are available. I know its not the same as having people in your life but we DO care.

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Dear @Former-Member, thank you for your kindness. I am feeling very low today, in fact, I would say that I am in self-administered palliative care. It is really that serious.

I am learning a lot about the cosmos these past few days and it has been interesting. How I wish I had enough years left to learn all I would like to know, but even Einstein couldn't grant himself such a luxury. How he'd have loved to see how things have advanced—and proven him right. I guess he'd have known that anyway.

Have a good day, @Former-Member, and thank you for your kindness. 💖

Gentle hugs @Historylover

Sorry to hear about your unfortunate situation @Historylover , whatever it may be.

Alas, I still have no solutions to offer. I can't help but agree with your statement that the dice are loaded, and that the game very much seems rigged to keep the suffering people suffering. I got confirmation just yesterday about the absence of any avenues for people 'at the bottom' to get out of their nightmares.

I've spent all my life for the past 20 years+ trying to figure out how to make things better, and I remain at a complete loss as to what can be done under the currant regime.

Still hurting badly here, @chibam, and I still can't see or feel anything but gloom at the moment, but life just keeps driving me onward even though I'm feeling that all is hopeless, but...

As you may know, it's been my usual habit to move from one area of YouTube interest to another and this afternoon I wandered on to chemistry videos. They were basic and progressive, and brought my basic knowledge out of mothballs, but they took my mind off my situation for hours. I'll be back tomorrow for more of the same. I tried teaching myself a couple of years ago and I found it enthralling, but with me, it's a case of use it or lose it, and I'd lost it, so it is back to the periodic table! Perhaps I'll get further than my last effort.

As for the dice, they are definitely loaded and it's about time it was called for what it is. The suffering going on by so many is inexcusable, but we are going to get through it and be stronger for it. I'm so tired of hurting and this level of distress, but I'm not going down with a fight.

Thank you for rallying for me, @chibam. I was really at my lowest, thinking that I'd received the final straw that would finally take me out. But I'm pressing on, and tomorrow is another day for us all. Thank you, my friend. I hope you're doing alright. 😊🤗 It never ceases to amaze me that we can continue to turn new corners even when we think all is lost. 🤞

❤️🙏🌹 @Historylover

You're welcome @Historylover I'm sorry to hear you are physically unwell and upset. I will continue to hold you in my heart and affirm for you beauty, love, harmony and healing. You may not be well enough to do this for yourself but am sending my prayers to you that God takes you under his wing and offers you supreme comfort, peace and happiness in your time of need. May God be your divine protector and comforter. From all of us here at SANE we stand with you ❤️ Sending love to you lovely woman x

Thank you, @Former-Member. Today has been a roller coaster and I think my situation is so serious that I am losing my perspective; that swinging back to positive has overwhelmed my reality. I really don't know what to do. This swing from the depths to feeling better and back again in one day has not happened before. I am in such a serious situation and really don't know what to do. It seems that I am in a serious trap of my ex-psy's meticulous making, and I feel like Nero fiddling while Rome burns. He has me right where he wants me and there's nothing I can do about it. I cannot get perspective on this seriousness and that's a concern. Whatever I do will worsen the situation. I think he has won this war regardless of any mood swings, but he was always going to. I never stood a chance against him.

Thank you for your post, @Former-Member, but if I can't get out of this situation, no-one can help me. ❤️ Sorry to be so negative, but it seems to be appropriate.

Hey @Historylover I'm sorry to hear that things have gotten so hectic for you. Sounds like you feel very powerless right now. Do you think that in time, things will become clearer and you might be able to make a decision about next steps?

Just been thinking about you @Historylover and hoping you are alright.

I love your profile pic ... not sure how long you have had this one ...

you have seemed very vulnerable with high intensity mood shifts. Hope you can weather it all.

sending a Coooeee

I really loved your thoughtful conversations about consciousness and how you interact on here. Being authentic is important.