Holy moly.
I did it!
I went to Japan, yes I struggled, but I did it!!!
I was super worried about the time zone difference, as like when daylight savings ended here, the lost hour of sleep screwed up my sleeping patterns and triggered hypomania, but somehow did alright, with an hours difference this time. I think because I had a fair few nights where I stayed up a tiny bit later/slept in a little bit longer, so my body was a lil more accustomed this time haha.
There’s no way to hide this - I struggled massively for the first few days. The language barrier was harder than I expected. I panicked leaving the airport, not knowing which train to catch (which is stupid because I had looked this all up in advance!!)
My lil group of friends all seem to be night owls so if I needed them, they were there. I did reach out to a friend on the second night, sharing how anxious I was, and she had prior experience going to other countries that don’t speak English and that helped
the nightmare that was organising Webster packs beforehand (I’m on a “staged supply” where I can only get one weeks worth of medication at a time. If I want to go away for more than a week I need to visit my GP and get them to speak to the pharmacy to give the ok. It frustrates me but that’s a story for another time) was not great. I got super stressed over that.
I did hear there was a doctor that spoke English, that catered for international tourists, however the website said “we do not see mental health issues” and that was a comfort to know how they see mental health in Japan 🙃
but anyway, had a great time. I shouldn’t have worried so much beforehand