not feeling good

Aw @BlueBay

Your mother wants to wait until the weather gets warmer - sheesh - we are only half way through June - that's pathetic and cruel -

I understand - I had the same crap from my mother - it hurts so much- being rejected is horrible -

When I moved to this unit I invited my parents for afternoon tea and it was too hot - I never asked them again - and that's what I suggest - don't ask them again and save yourself the rejection

Go out tomorrow and enjoy the time with your husband - make the most of what you have - allow the bad feelings for a short time and then shower and wash your mother right out of your hair - you don't need to have that in your life

It's really painful - I know - but that's her and you can't change that - you can choose what you want to do tomorrow

All the best with that

Dec

My sister @BlueBay

You are doing a lot bettereven though you can not see it , sometimes we are too close to see the changes xoxo

It's really painful - I know - but that's her and you can't change that - you can choose what you want to do tomorrow-- I agree with @Owlunar xoxo

I have been rejected soo much in my life that is has taken a long time to accept this that you can`t change your mum like I could never change my father

Sending love @BlueBay, hope tomorrow is a much better day

Hi everyone @Ali11 @Shaz51 @Owlunar @Meowmy @Battlemouse71 @Former-Member @Razzle @Zoe7 and others following

yesterday hubby and I decided to go out for a coffee then a long walk at a national park. After our long walk we drive to a strawberry farm and bought some. Then went home our dinner on slow cooker and then went to a park and beach to play with A.

Our son came down and had dinner. Both boys are going to Bali in a few weeks with a few other mates.

Tiday I worked my long shift and my back is so sore. I’m struggling tonight. Just a few extra hours on a concrete floor makes a huge difference on my back.

Tomorrow we have a funeral to go to. The man that passed away was a very close family friend. He was my sisters ex- father in law.

@Owlunar You know you’re right, I never thought that I use the forum as my daily diary.

It really helps me get the words out of my head.

Anyway I should go.

Need to take something for my back.

BB ❤️❤️❤️

sound like a good day yesterday my sister @BlueBay

sorry to hear your back is sore tonight after today , a nice warm bath in epsoms salts is good for muscles xxx

and a good night sleep

@BlueBay Good stuff, nice day with hubby and little A. Hope your back get better. Well done for completing long shift at work. Have good night.

Yesterday sounds lovely @BlueBay How are the strawberries? Hope your back is feeling better, do you have vibram sole shoes? Those are supposed to be good if you work on concrete floors.

Strawberries are so sweet snd delicious @Ali11 Have never heard vibram sole shoes. Will look into it. My back is still sore.

Yes @BlueBay

This is a journal and your entry today was excellent - you have recorded the great outing you had and the time you spent with yous husband and A - and bought strawberries - I know the strawberries down where you are taste wonderful - really great

I sympathize with your about your back and the concrete floor - that's a toughie - ouch - I can feel it - my unit has a concrete floor - carpet sure but the concrete floor hurts you back

Tomorrow the funeral will be hard because you are a sensitive person - you will be okay though - these days funerals tend to be a celebration of life and give us time to reflect on the life of the person who has gone and be together to pay your respects - you might cry but that's a good time to release tears and I know what your father and my mother did/said about crying at funerals but they were wrong - I am saying you can cry and that's okay

Have you got a wheat pack or hot water bottle for your back - I find heat the best thing for my back pain - I hope you can sleep and wake rested for a big day tomorrow

Great entry - well done

Dec

Hi @Owlunar it’s 6.30am up snd having breakfast. The funeral starts at 10am on the other side of Melbourne. We are leaving home about 8am.

My sister has decided to go as her 2 children (adults) said they want her to go for support. She is going for her kids but also her ex-FIL was good to her so she is paying her respect.

Cry - I think that will happen. I’m so mixed up inside with emotions. I need snd hope I can release some.

I was really angry last night about something in here and now it’s rsttked me. I can’t really say. But I’ve emailed the moderators hope they can help.

Im really nit looking forward to tiday. There will be lots of people we haven’t seen for over 20 years. I just want to hibernate.

Ive told hubby we’re nit going to the cemetery. I can’t hsndle thst.

I hope you’re ok. I always forget to ask you.

Chat tonight when I get back ❤️❤️