not feeling good

Goodluck with seeing your doctor @BlueBay I hope he can help relieve some of that pain for you BB

Saw my doctor. Complete meltdown because I saw we have no money at all.

I don’t want to live anymore.

Its time I leave.

My mind and thoughts are too dark.

Lufe is nit fair

I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve all this

I csnt cope anymore

You need to call someone to help you get through this @BlueBay - it is really important that you reach out to a helpline right now nd get some help with these feelings.

That's horrible @BlueBay, and such a thing to see when you're already struggling. Perhaps taking @Zoe7's lead and reaching out to call the Lifeline or SCBS could help you get through. Please let us know how you go on here

@Former-Member I csnt get fixed cause things I have tried and nothing works.

I’ll never get better. This will be me in a dark shit hole

im not normal

if I was normal I could work more snd not struggle financially

I want to go away forever

I told my doctor I’m leaving

he wasn’t paying too much attention

My mental mind state is bad

but I don’t care

i have tried but I keep falling back into this dark hole

i have gone fir a walk and got home but

just wish I kept walking to nowhere land

And what would that achieve @BlueBay - you would still be feeling the same but even more alone .

If your doctor is not listening then maybe it is time to get a second opinion was someone new. I know you have told this doctor a lot but you don't seem to be imroving at all - maybe it is time to try a different approach and to do that you may need to consult with someone else and start from the beginning again - I know that is super hard for you to think about but you need help.

Have you called on of the helplines today?

@Zoe7

I do trust my doctor and I know he has my best interests reg my health. I think he thinks I will get through this rough patch. I don’t want to see another doctor and start again. I csnt.

I’m going now to a community support centre where I can get some help with food and maybe vouchers.

My doctor is the only person who believes in me. He puts up boundaries and challenges me but right now I can’t think.

Its all too dark. I did call lifeline but they don’t say much they listen.

I’m just coping hour by hour even less than that.

Its all a big blur of negative in my head atm.

I hate this life. You can’t live like this a daily struggle. I can’t

@BlueBay It is good to have boundaries but you also have these times when you do not cope and they have seemed to increase for you lately. It may be that your physical condition is presently affecting you emotionally as well - and you financial position as a consequences makes all of this so much harder. To be able to get well physically is your first step and going for a walk today is a good sign that that is turning around a little. Keep looking after yourself - eat properly, drink lots of water, continue the walks and rest when you need it - that is the basis of getting better physically - then your emotional state has a chance to improve as well.

It is good that you are getting help with food/vouchers - that is a pro-active approach to your problems at present and shows me also that you do care about yourself and you do want to get through this. It is super hard living from day to day but recognising that that is all you can deal with right now is the first step to actually dealing with it. I am doing the same - 'living' from day to day as that is all I can do to get through these rough times too. We will support you Hon but you also need to support yourself and that can be done with self-care and an attitude that you can get through this - as tough as it is you know it is possible

@s-jay@Zoe7

At support centre csnt stip crying

this is no good