not feeling good

Didn't get your last post before I posted @BlueBay You have had such a lovely day - try to remind yourself of that and those feelings you have had during the day BB

@Shaz51 I hope your mum gets better soon

@BlueBay I sometimes find it hard to stay positive all day, i find if I'm not occupied doing something then negative thoughts creep in, that's where coming on here when I'm feeling down just reading posts help me and i don't have to write anything.

@Zoe7 I hate it when the house gets into a mess and I think about cleaning up, I have done washing and dishes this morning, I haven't done kitchen cause when i do clean it by night time my 2 older boys mess it up again and I get angry with them.

thank you @saturnzoon

sometimes it is hard to stay positive all day,, remember the lovely time you had this morning xxx

mr shaz feels this on sunday afternoons when he has to go back to work on mondays xx

That would get annoying re: the kitchen @saturnzoon I only have to worry about myself making a mess At least you have done washing and the dishes today.

I am glad that coming on here and reading posts sometimes helps you - we are here to support you too @saturnzoon

i can’t get to skeep

my childhood abusers are on my mind

im angry

I want to hurt them so much

mske them feel pain

see what it’s like

I’ve gone through 8 yrs of therapy sessions

whst about them

I hate their guts so much

I never want to see my brother again

he is an addicted predator all his life

I want to hurt him so he knows what pain is

I’m exhausted I’m emotional

Hi Bluebay,

I'm sorry you are having distressing thoughts tonight. Is there anything you can do to distract yourself, so they do not become too overwhelming?

Warm Regards,

Kuu

@Kuu I’ve just gone to bed. When I’m exhausted and emotional my mind takes over and thoughts come into my mind. The abuse comes up quite a bit. I’m just angry.

Hearing you @BlueBay ❤️

Be gentle with yourself @BlueBay, and I hope you can get some good rest tonight 🙂

I managed to skeep ok last night until I had a terrible dream of me being in an earthquake. It was horrible.

Tried to go fir a walk but too windy not good fir my asthma. Still coughing so I need to be careful.

Inside day tiday. Might make a banana cake later. Then watch telly and rest up. Going back to work tomorrow. Glad it’s only 4 hours don’t think my body can cope with more at the moment.