not feeling good

Heading out of forumland now - need to get some housework and other things done @BlueBay Hugs

Your avatar is beautiful @BlueBay .... 😊

It’s not too much Hon, but now you are starting to voice the bigger fears that are driving all the tears, rather than it b ing about the finances and not feeling well, even though they are important too.

I think your doctors have told you that with medication, treatment including therapy and DBT (maybe some other programs are helpful too), and self-care and mindfulness practices, your thoughts and emotions can reduce how much they are swinging around and controlling you.

It’s about learning a life balance and reducing the symptoms of illness to the point where everything is far more manageable, and the underlying damage from your childhood experiences can begin to heal.

The mi diagnosis is based on the symptoms that you experience, so if gradually those symptoms lessen and begin to affect you much less, I think it is possible for your diagnosis to be altered as well ..... but that is a question for your pdoc.

Physical illnesses like diabetes can be affected by medications and treatments so their affects are much weaker ..... that can happen with a whole range of other things too - illnesses of many descriptions, physical injuries and other health conditions.

Try not to stress about it and ask your specialists these questions that you want answers to, rather than presuming that it will always be this way and wanting to give up.

Its not easy @BlueBay, it easy at all, and all we can ever do is simply try ..... do kee on trying with the strategies and supports you have.

Hugs n hugs ..... love you Hon.

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Thankyou lovely @Faith-and-Hope im really scared. I have so much fear. It’s huge. The female doctor called back this morning and I asked her if I could take a tab to help me sleep. She said she will see me on Monday but I explained I can’t affird to see her and she said she will bulk bill but really wants to see me to check hiw im going and talk about my mental health. Between my own doctor who’s on leave the other male doctor and her I’m in really good hands. She asked if I was suicidal and I said not right now as hubby is home but told her I’m not good. She said take one day at a time and ring the CAT team if need be.

I’m still feeling very depressed. Don’t want to do anything this afternoon. Just wish I could pack a bag and drive off. I just need to clear my head.

Maybe I should go back to hospital for a break. What do you guys think? @Zoe7@tennisstar

I know you can’t tell me what to do but I don’t even know what to do. If I go which all I need to do is ring my psych and tell him how bad I am and he’ll admit me. But then there’s the money issue if I go If I go in for say 2 weeks I’ll lose $700. That’s huge.

Oh I can’t deal with this.

Its all too much.

Im crying again. I’ve had enough.

Thankyou @MDT for thinking of me. I don’t know what to say either. Just that I’m struggling and I so f...... hate my depression.

I appreciate your support. You’re such a caring guy ❤️❤️

Beautifully said @Faith-and-Hope

Keeping on the right track needs a wholistic approach @BlueBay - where your physical and mental well-being are both looked after. Learning to have balance in life and looking after every facet of your life takes time and practice but it can be achieved. It is so much harder to do when your emotional and physical states are under so much pressure but following the advice of the professionals, undertaking therapy sessions and being open and honest to those that matter on how you are doing is a massive step. You can achieve a better life @BlueBay but you also have to want to do the hard work to get there.

Your avatar is beautiful @BlueBay

I suggest you see this doctor on Monday and see what she says @BlueBay We are not in a position to say whether you should go to hospital or not - she seems to really care about your mental health so see her and discuss everything with her - and discuss with her talking to your hubby too - if it comes from the GP then he is probably more likely to get just how bad you are feeling.

I agree with @Zoe7 see what happens on Monday @BlueBay with the gp

Thankyou @Pepsimax ❤️