not feeling good

You have had a really huge day @BlueBay and you often feel like this at this time of night - you are tired and things get to you more when you are tired. Can you have an early night tonight and try to get some much needed rest?

@Zoe7

Im laying down on the couch. I need to get away. I need to stop my head from being so full of thoughts

Thiughts of running going away

I’m so tired I can’t think

I’m not coping

I hate my sessions it’s hard

think I’ll go to bed

hope you sleep well Zoe

i don’t know what I’m doing

I want to cry

I want to hide away

I need a heavy blanket around me

im not doing well

These sessions really do take so much out of you BB - don't be sorry Hon - they are hard, really hard and it is no wonder you feel like you do tonight. I hope you can sleep @BlueBay but come back on if you can't and get the support here you deserve. Will check in with you tomorrow either way Hon - hugs

Hi @Zoe7@Faith-and-Hope@outlander

I didn’t sleep well last night. Kept tossing and turning. And having weird dreams.

I’m up now slowly getting ready for work. You know if we weren’t so desperate for money I would stay home

I need to calm my mind. It’s everywhere st the moment.

I want to call my doctor and tell him I’m leaving my family for good. I want to tell him that I’m not coping. And tell him that I can’t do this anymore. I’m just not in the right headspace anymore. Now I’m crying.

I really have no idea what I’m doing 😥

Just work through today hour by hour @BlueBay - go to work first and get through that then deal with the rest of the day - one thing at a time. You need to keep busy - we know you don't do well when you have too much time to think - so organise some things to do after work - knitting, walking Jersey, making dinner...and then maybe get to Friday Feast and keep occupied there for a while...

Hugs Hon

@Zoe7 I just want to stay home in bed. But I have to go to work. I hate it. I need a break. It feels everything is over powering me. Hour by hour I will try

I’ll chat to you tonight.

I wish I wasn’t going. I just can’t do this anymore.

Just gwt through work and then deal with the rest of the day later @BlueBay - you got this Hon - I believe in you

@Zoe7 On my lunch break. I want to go away. I can’t cope. I’m struggling with stupid customers who are so impatient. I’m not doing well. I just want to get away. Why can’t i just go.

You can't just go because it would not solve anything for you @BlueBay - all the things you are struggling with will still be there but you would not have the things that you love around you anymore - that is why you stay - because you love your family and they love you and that is so important to you.