not feeling good

Hugs @Zoe7

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Sometimes it doesn't matter how much self-care you do a relapse can happen anyway @Tennistalent - but you need to try to fight harder to get back some control.

@BlueBay Goodluck at the doctors - let us know how it goes

@Zoe7

Just came out of doctors. He told me it was some name which I’ve forgotten. It’s bacterial and fungal. When it stays moist the fungal infection gets worse. So he prescribed an ointment to use for 7 days. It should clear but if not go back.

I’m glad I got to see him.

He wants me to stay busy this afternoon because he knows what I’m like if I don’t.

Im really lucky I have a very caring doctor. And a really nice and supportive psychologist. One that gives me a huge hug at the end of each session. There not supposed do that but she has from day one. She has been amazing.

And my psych - well I only see him for my meds. He’s ok. 😊

I'm glad you have a caring doctor and psychologist too @BlueBay - they both seem to want the best for you and support you as much as is possible.

Also pleased you got in to see your doctor and know what is happening - and you have some cream to help get rid of it - that is great news.

Don't stress yourself too much this afternoon but staying busy is what you need - happy to chat with you here if you are short of ideas just at the moment but I also know you have lots of knotting to do and I am sure we can come up with other things to keep you and your mind occupied.

Hi @Zoe7

I’m home now. Hubby is home. I feel really isolated. Really numb now. I can’t verbalise how I feel. It’s strange. I have a lot of feelings but can’t write it.

Whst should I do?

Have you organised dinner yet @BlueBay - maybe doing that will give you something practical to do and take your mind of how you are feeling for a while. I am happy to sit here with you and help to distract you if that is what you want also.

@Zoe7

My husband is not empathetic at all regarding my Mum wanting to come over. He has no idea of what I’m going through and no idea of why I’m so worried about my mum visiting.

Why can’t he understand. I want to run away again. I know it’s my default answer but I can’t handle this at the moment.

Try to put it away in a box and lock it up for now @BlueBay - there is nothing that you can do about your mum coming over until it happens BB - you worrying about what might happen only hurts you and no-one else Hon - as hard as it is try to focus on the good things in your life today - you have a wonderful doctor and psych and they have both shown you care and compassion today. You have cream for your rash and those beautiful images of Ayla to hold onto. These are positive things you can hold onto now so you don't go down the self-sabotage road.