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not feeling good

BlueBaySenior Contributor15 Nov 2016, 9:06 pm AEDT

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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candycaneSenior Contributor23 June 2018, 4:52 pm AEST

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Hi @BlueBay Candycane one of the moderators here. I hear that you are struggling today @BlueBay and the feelings you are feeling are so overwhelming. It's scary and unsettling to feel so confused. You've done well to reach out for support. As a reminder, if you're concerned about your safety or you'd like counselling support, you can reach out to the following services: Lifeline 13 11 14 Suicide Callback Service 1300 659 467 Take good care of yourself today and please do reach out for support

Candycane

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outlanderSenior Contributor23 June 2018, 5:10 pm AEST

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Hugs @BlueBay i think hugging bubs would be a good idea
I don't think anythings wrong with you, your just struggling atm.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor23 June 2018, 5:21 pm AEST

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Hi @BlueBay .....

I can hear you are struggling really hard with these awful feelings too. Hold on to the supports around you and get to your next appointment Hon .... the appointments are stepping stones to healing, but your counsellor told it it will be really hard working through all the issues as you go .... that it will bring up these awful feelings that are so hard to manage and find any sense to, however bringing them out to deal with them is part of overcoming them for the longer term.

Sitting with you through the hard moments @BlueBay.

Keep breathing the deep calming breaths ... keep reaching for support services ... keep reaching for your coping box and self-care activities .... keep coming along the path ....

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BlueBaySenior Contributor23 June 2018, 7:41 pm AEST

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I'm going to run away and disappear next week @Faith-and-Hope@outlander@candycane@Shaz51@Ant7@MDT @utopia

I keep thinking this is the best thing to do. Whether it's right or wrong I have no idea. It's taking up so much of my mind thinking about it even dreaming about it.

I'm frustrating I'm angry I'm emotionsl I'm crazy

don't bother replying because I'm not worthy of being supported or loved anymore. Tears are flowing as I write this. I really don't know what is going on with me. I think I need to ring my gp on Monday.

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Zoe7Senior Contributor23 June 2018, 7:52 pm AEST

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Did your psychologist give you any strategies to use when you are feeling like this @BlueBay?

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BlueBaySenior Contributor23 June 2018, 7:55 pm AEST

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@Zoe7 Right now I'm so caught up in my emotions I can't even think about what she said. It doesn't even come to me. It's like I'm so absorbed by my own emotions that it's too hard to come out of it. If that makes sense.

I'm needing to get away from everything. I can't think. I need to run fast.

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Zoe7Senior Contributor23 June 2018, 7:58 pm AEST

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Running away is not going to solve your problems @BlueBay - you will simply transfer them to another place with you. They will still be there but you will be alone to have to deal with them with none of your family that love you around. Do you have Ayla tonight?

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utopiaSenior Contributor23 June 2018, 8:12 pm AEST