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not feeling good

BlueBaySenior Contributor15 Nov 2016, 9:06 pm AEDT

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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BlueBaySenior Contributor05 May 2018, 4:45 pm AEST

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Hi @Faith-and-Hope
My mood has dropped agsin. I don't understand why. I had a nap earlier but woke up still feeling really tired and cold.
I have this vivid thought to Sh so I can get the support and be believed. I don't know what I'm thinking but the urge is strong snd thought is tsking it to the next level.
How can I be okish one minute and then struggling so much the next?
I made a tea before and still drinking it. Tv is on fir the noise. But not really watching it.
Hormones are everywhere also. No period fir 7 months then bang I get one this week when the shingles cane out!!! Just what I needed.
I'm feeling kind of destructive as well. Don't feel you have to reply. You always reply. You hzve been too good to me. I don't deserve this kindness. I deserve nothing anymore.
I'm sorry I'm not making sense. My head is so mixed up.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor05 May 2018, 5:39 pm AEST

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You were invalidated through the abuse you suffered @BlueBay ...... and then again when you sought help and understanding ..... these events have left you feeling as though you have to prove how you feel, that nobody will believe you unless there is visible proof that something is wrong ...... but that is thinking that can be challenged Hon .......

First of all, you are safe now. You are not the little girl who suffered the abuse, even though you carry her with you ...... it is 2018 and you are a grown woman far away from what happened and safe from it in this time and place ....... hug yourself and tell yourself that every time these thoughts come up ..... “I am safe now” .....

Your doctor does believe you about how you are feeling and what is happening for you ..... so you can push back against that need to validate with this truth too ....... and we believe you ...... and the people on crisis counselling lines believe you ...... keep telling yourself that. We all believe you because you are a grown woman telling us your truth ....... what is not to believe ? These are not things you can make up ..... the evidence of trauma in your life is what is already happening ...... the care your counsellors are giving you, the time in hospital, the signs of trauma in the way you feel and the menta illness that has resulted ...... this is all the validation you need @BlueBay ......

Hugs and hugs Hon ..... tell the voice that is tempting you to sh that it is not needed ..... you are believed and are being cared for appropriately by your medical team.

💜💐

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor05 May 2018, 5:56 pm AEST

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Draw on yourself instead @BlueBay ..... grab a texts or pen and mark yourself with that until that urge has passed ......

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BlueBaySenior Contributor05 May 2018, 6:25 pm AEST

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Umm it's too late
It's my fault
I'll never learn
It's all my fault
I'm sorry everyone
I can't talk to anyone right now
I'm bad
Tried the CAT team just now no answer
What's the point of having them

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor05 May 2018, 6:26 pm AEST

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Keep trying the CAT team @BlueBay ..... other people need them too, but so do you.

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BlueBaySenior Contributor05 May 2018, 6:39 pm AEST

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Still no answer. I don't care I'm not calling agsin
I csnt do this anymore
I'm tired
I've been really bad tonight doing Something
Csnt say much on here otherwise it will get deleted and the moderators will get involved

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor05 May 2018, 6:43 pm AEST

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Will you go to bed early @BlueBay ?

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candycaneSenior Contributor05 May 2018, 6:54 pm AEST

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Hi there @BlueBay

Candycane one of the moderators here, I have sent you an email to check how you are going. Could you please take a minute to have a read and respond as required.

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candycaneSenior Contributor05 May 2018, 6:55 pm AEST

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hi there @BlueBay i have sent through an email to you checking up could you please have a read and respond

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Shaz51Senior Contributor05 May 2018, 8:59 pm AEST

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@BlueBay

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