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not feeling good

BlueBaySenior Contributor15 Nov 2016, 9:06 pm AEDT

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor29 Mar 2018, 9:49 pm AEDT

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@BlueBay .... ❤️

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Unknown userMember29 Mar 2018, 10:03 pm AEDT

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Hi @Catcakes,

Yes, that is correct. Bluebay's tag to me must not have worked, given she didn't include the accented é.

Kindest,

Amour_Et_Psyché

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CatcakesSenior Contributor29 Mar 2018, 10:07 pm AEDT

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How ridiculous 😡
@Former-Member

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BlueBaySenior Contributor30 Mar 2018, 9:49 am AEDT

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Hi everyone
I'm just ok this morning. I slept so much I just got up. I'm going into hospital on Tuesday it is my planned admission from my psych. I'm so happy it's this Tuesday. I need it so badly. I've not coped. I knew I was spiralling downhill very quickly when I stated to have thoughts of dying. I rang lifeline twice this week and the CAT team twice also. Not sure if the CAT team told my psych who escalated the admission. I just wanted to say thankyou to all of you who helped me stay safe and still alive. I don't want to die. I did Sh but it's ok.
@Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Catcakes and others who helped thankyou.
@Former-Member thankyou to all that helped me over the past few weeks. Even with your emails.
I sometimes get too overwhelmed with my issues and go to my catastrophe and then Sh as my coping strategy. I know niw it's not a good thing. But at the time I don't know that. I hope this hospital really helps me learn a bit more about myself.
Tears are flowing cause I still feel alone and it's hard when I can't express things to my hubby. Snd I bottle it all up. Snd that's when I explode.
I will let you all know how I go in hospital.
BB xxxooo

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Zoe7Senior Contributor30 Mar 2018, 10:35 am AEDT

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You staying safe and getting through these really tough times is all that is important to us @BlueBay We really care about you and really feel how much you are hurting when you are in that state where nothing seems to matter - but be assured now that you matter to us very much

I am so pleased your admission has been brought forward to Tuesday - you really need the support right now and I hope you can find some ways of dealing with life when it seems there is no way to continue on.

Zoe

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BlueBaySenior Contributor30 Mar 2018, 11:40 am AEDT

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Thankyou @Zoe7
It means a lot to me to have your support
Love BB Xxoo

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Zoe7Senior Contributor30 Mar 2018, 11:42 am AEDT

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You always have my support @BlueBay - even when I am not on here I am always sitting on your shoulder

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Shaz51Senior Contributor30 Mar 2018, 1:48 pm AEDT

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hugs @BlueBay

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BlueBaySenior Contributor01 Apr 2018, 11:20 am AEST

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Hi @Shaz51@Zoe7@Faith-and-Hope@utopia

I am angry this morning. I phoned my mum to say happy easter and she and dad are going for lunch to my other sister who i don't talk to. I am angry because i have asked them over to my house a few times and each time she refuses to come.

If my dad is not well after his operation and not well enough to travel anywhere then he shouldn't be going to my sistgers house either.

i am so annoyed. i am going to ask them again for the last time if they want to come over for luch and if she refuses well then tht's it i am done.

i am over asking all the time. i am hurting because it is easter and it would have been nice to have them over, but do you know what - i have my own children and now a grand daughter who are my family.

if she and dad don't want to be part of my own family - well it's their loss.

i am over my mum and her lies to my other sister who i talk to. she tells me one thing and my other sister another.

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BlueBaySenior Contributor01 Apr 2018, 9:02 pm AEST

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Hi everyone
I'm not good tonight.
I'm in self harming myself
Very angry
J is hurting and wants revenge
J is going to self harm now
I'm in a different head space

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