not feeling good

Your negative self-talk is taking over every single part of you @BlueBay

With every knew thing you think you begin to feel that as well - it becomes a never-ending cycle that overwhelms you.

Let's try to list a few positives you have in your life - what are 3 things that you love, make you smile or bring you a little joy?

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@BlueBay wrote:
I give up. My life is never going to get better. Feeling like a huge failure. Crap stupid. I'm just over it all. I can't seem to get one foot in front. Exhausted feeling like this. Just want to go. Was on lifeline last night.
Feeling numb there's nothing left to feel.
I wish sometimes I wasn't here anymore. Trouble is I get so scared to verbalise this to anyone. It's easier to write it than talk.
Sorry for being on here daily complaining. There are so many others on here who deserve all the support they can get.
I'm lost in my life if there even is a life. I'm so scared of being me. I'm so depressed but it's falling on deaf ears. No one seems to care anymore. My support people prob don't want to know me anymore.
Sorry for this post.

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@BlueBay this will pass as it has before. Sending kitty hugs

Im feeling a bit the same @BlueBay@Zoe7

@Zoe7 the only thing that keeps me here right now is my beautiful grand daughter, that's it nothing else

i don't love anything else right now. i've been angry all day and can't get it out of my system

i wish i could just die

this is what i want; it's all too much

why can't i just go away

Because despite what you are feeling you don't want to just go away @BlueBay

You don't just have your grand daughter - you have your daughter and sons. I know things have been really tough with your mother but this time last year neither her nor your dad where in your life at all and every little bit you can hold on to now is a real bonus - and that is something to be grateful for - a reconnection that you never ever dreamed possible.

@candycane

i am not good

i am needing your help tonight

i don't know why i can't get over this overwhelming horrible feeling and anger

all these feelings thoughts behavoiur is here today

black hole downward spiral very quickly

Hi @BlueBay I hear you, sounds like you are having a really rough day today. We sent you an email earlier to check how you are, was wondering if you had seen it yet?.

What is your favorite thing to do with you grand daughter?. The relationship between a grandmother and grand daughter is so very special. The definition of unconditional love.

@candycane the email from flipper?? or another one - i haven't received anymore emails this afternoon.

i love to hold her and hug her, i put her arms on my shoulders and her face up against mine and i feel the love of her. sorry i am crying. i can't do this anymore.

she is so sweet

Hi @BlueBay yes the email from flipper the previous mod.

If you can think about something fun you did with her or how you feel when you are with her. When will you be seeing her next @BlueBay