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not feeling good

BlueBaySenior Contributor15 Nov 2016, 9:06 pm AEDT

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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OwlunarSenior Contributor03 May 2017, 9:28 am AEST

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More headaches @BlueBay - I am sorry about that

Of course you are over being in pain - and I know pain and I can tell you honestly that when I get a migraine it is worse than back pain - I can fight with the back pain but not with the migraine - that really pushes me down - and no wonder you are crying

Keep knitting - I didn't know doctors gave people that kind of pain killer that thins the blood anymore - there is one that doesn't - it would be better if you had that one - take things quietly and stay in the dark as soon as you feel the pricking that means a headache is starting - which is easier said than done

Sleep is the best things for those headaches if you can get sleep - maybe that is hard in hospital

All this knitting - when my kids were young I knitted jumpers for myself - the same pattern with the same kind of wool - just different colours - and I had a lot of jumpers but I can't remember what happened to all of them

Thinking of you BB

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Change123Senior Contributor03 May 2017, 9:47 am AEST

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@BlueBay

Hi how are you doing in there?

Dont worry about the scans as @utopia said its just very noisey. I had a MRI and actually brought music to play at the suggestion fo the doctor. They usually put headphones on you so firstly it blocks some of the banging noises from the machinery out but so they can talk to you. If you bring music they will play it through the headphones which helps to distract you from the banging noises.

Keep knitting and take care - we are all thinking of you!

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BlueBaySenior Contributor03 May 2017, 6:14 pm AEST

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Hi my beautiful friends
Anxiety has kicked in. I'm so stressed about this MRI that I need to do. I'm so scared and feel so alone.
I tried telling one of the nurses but she didn't help. I bet she would be worried and stressed if she had to have an MRI.
I've been hiding away today and will tonight as well. I walked out of a group session. I'm feeling flat depressed and want to run away. I won't but it's a thought.
I told nurse about our holiday coming up and how anxious I'm feeling about not being right. I won't cancel our holiday. But I need contact numbers before I go. She told me if I don't feel good to just go to ED at local hospital or call the local CAT team. I'm still nervous about my meds.
Waiting to see my psych. Actually my daughter phoned today to say she was cooking a risotto and for me to come home for tea. I said yes I would but when I told the nurse she said I couldn't because my psych hasn't come yet. So I had to stay. But what did I have for dinner?? Risotto!!!! Who would have thought that!!
Anyway I'm going now. Going to stay in my own room and hide away. 😥

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outlanderSenior Contributor03 May 2017, 6:29 pm AEST

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Well wasnt that lucky @BlueBay im sure not as good as ypur daughters ill bet though

I know your super nervous about an mri i dont have experince with them prob wont be long but i havent yet so im not sure how to reduce anxiety around that one.
I did have to have an ultrasounds on my pelvis and rhat was nerve wracking. I just stared at the roof or closed my eyes and thought about a quote cheerbear gave me about bravery. Ill see if i can upload it for you its very good

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utopiaSenior Contributor03 May 2017, 7:11 pm AEST

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@BlueBay. Gave me a laugh to hear you ended up having risotto at the hospital. Lol. That's good luck right there.
An MRI doesn't hurt, but it is very noisy. They have a mirror in there- not to check how you look - but tilted so that you can see the room and the staff. That way you don't feel isolated. Some will play music. I practiced my deep breathing exercise & when I was feeling 'jittery' I held my hand out and pretended I was holding a friends hand. It worked.
My psychiatrist has recommended that I go to hospital for a while. So tmw my gp will write up the referral for the hospital and try to get Workcover approved for the stay. Then I just have to wait for a bed.
Feeling really nervous about this. It's a different hospital than the one I stayed at last time. And I feel like I have failed. I was doing so well late last year. Not so good now. And my son - god only knows what he's thinking.

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BlueBaySenior Contributor03 May 2017, 7:18 pm AEST

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Yeah @outlander I reckon my daughters risotto would have been better. She sent me a photo and it looked really nice.
@utopia I'm sorry I didn't know that you are about to go into hospital. Imagine if we were together!! Lol
I'm scared of the result of them finding something. The "what if". I know I am catastrophising this but I'm scared. I will close my eyes and think of our beautiful island.
Do you know how soon you'll be in hospital?
Thinking if you. Xxx

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outlanderSenior Contributor03 May 2017, 7:21 pm AEST