not feeling good

Hi @utopia

I'm home from work and my back is killing me. It is really sore. I think the counters are not right in the new shop and the tills are too low, hence my back pain. I am visualising the island we are on. it is so nice, the water is calm and the palms are so green. Oh there you are, I just saw you on a tree.

I sort of understand what you mean about 'feelings' it's just that my mind fights with it all the time. That's why I try to SH because i am fighting with my head (does that make sense).

I am trying very hard to stay positive even at work. It is so difficult at times because of my inner thoughts.

I think i better go and help out with dinner - chicken snitzels, salad and vegies.

might take a sleeping med tonight to get me through the whole night.

How are you @utopia I know you are feeling down too today.

chat again after tea xxxooo

how are you tonight @BlueBay

Hi @Former-Member

I'm struggling a bit tonight with my inner voice in my head and negative thoughts.

I am trying to not go on too many posts tonight, just limiting myself.

I think a bit of self care tonight is what I need. And an early night, hopefully i will get a good night sleep tonight.

I better head off, i am struggling to stay awake.

hope you sleep well tonight, chat tomorrow.

good night @BlueBay sleep well

Hi @BlueBay

This might come as a surprise but for everyone some days are harder than others and when we wake up in the morning we never know what the day will bring

There are some days when I wake up feeling as if the sky has fallen on me through the night - it happens often actually - I will wake up with worse than usual pain and the idea of it is very gloomy - but most days things like that wear off - I have found some days it's better to get up when I take my medication and watch TV for a while as I eat my breakfast - other days - I get a hot pack and stay in bed and read - but for the best part the days improve

And then there are the days that don't and winter is coming and so I know I will be here more often - and that idea is a good one - enjoy the autumn flush while it lasts and then have the winter - and go away for a few days in the middle of it

You may never stop having sudden mood changes - but that doesn't mean you won't feel better - I have an idea that the thought that when you have the black parts of your mood swings you will know that this is temporary - and the white part will come back - and during the white parts you will know that the black parts will return and that this is your normal and it will smooth out for you

And you have the idea of running away - to me that is part of my own plan for taking another break and seeing somewhere else for a few days - if I didn't have the need to have someone check into my puddy-tat with the major feline meltdown I might run away more often cause just thinking about packing my suitcase and getting a taxi to the airport or the rail terminals is enough to shift gears in my plans - my moods - whatever

You will be okay BB - we all have ups and downs - you seem to have them more often and more drastically - but I am sure this will iron out - after all - just think of what has happened in just this year already!!!

Dec

Hi @utopia

I am sorry you were feeling flat yesterday - I hope today is better

I felt pretty ordinary myself yesterday - was that all the grease on the fishndhips on Wednesday or what? I had a headache that came and went and felt totally useless - and today I can tell - oh yes - my coffee table is covered with STUFF - like cups and plates and other clutter - looks as if I spent all day watching TV - so I guess without looking my beside table looks the same - and I did not take the major feline puddy tat meltdown girl to the vet to have her claws clipped - head aching too much - just this side of a migraine -

But this morning I feel better - and I hope you do too

Thinking of you

Dec