Hi @Former-Member and others
I don't like this guys attitude. He calls my name from his office door. Doesn't even come to reception to call me. So rude. He room is about 20 steps away from reception. It's like hes too important to come out and greet his patients.
And then he goes and sits down and i have to close the door. Rude!!! Then he says that I need to do the DBT therapy group in Melbourne City. I told him i can't because i can't afford it. He then says 'oh but when you were working you still didn't go". No because i couldn't justify having two days off a week and not get paid for it. By this stage i was getting angry. He has no empathy. he then says "you want everyone else to do things for you or fix things for you, but you are the one that needs to do it". He then says that I need to be assertive. FFS i have been passive myh whole life, you can't change to assertive by clicking your fingers. it takes a lot of work, thinking things through and practise. it doesn't happen overnight. i told him "do you realise how hard it is to have BPD when i am emotional all the time.
I told him i am doing ACT therapy at the local hospital and he didn't even say anything. Well i don't care I am going to do what i am at the moment. And that's it.
Communication at home - he said i need to start commjnicating and tell the family what I tell him in a session. i told him that we as a family have never commjunicated like this before and it won't be easy. i said my parents never commujnicated like he wants us to. it feels very strange to do what he wants.
i do get it, becasue communication is very important.
I told him i feel that he is attacking me to which he replied no that is yhour thinking and perception. but i really felt that he was.
He asked me how often i see my doctor and what we talk about. i told him we talk about physical stuff if i have any and he asks me about my mental health. and i see him fortnightlyu as he is happy to do that.
he now wants my psychologist to write to him.
I asked if i could stop one med as i was put on it in hospital and not having nightmares now. he says "you chop and change meds all the time, no you need this med". he said meds won't fix you, i don't know what will!!!!
At this stage i want to walk out, instead i sat there crying like a little girl being told off very badly.
I walked out, paid my bill (which i really thought he would have bulk billed me but he didn't) and got in my car
I drove around the corner and pulled over, i had to calm down.
I called my doctor and he called back just now. i told him i am calm now and glad he didn't take my call earlier as i wouldn't have been able to talk.
he was shocked at what i told him and apologised that it went so bad. he said i have every right tyo not see him again if that's how i feel.
my next appt is in May, bujt right now i don't want to see him. things will change i am sure.
No @Former-Member the nice psych in hospital said i can't see him at the clinic as he is in the same clinic as mine. and he said it wouldn't be right. I think thats rubbish, after all i am a paying patient. and if i am not happy with one i should be able to see another.
I will discuss this more with my GP next week.
