not feeling good

@BlueBay I looked up natural ways to ease headaches. Natural oils might help. Lavender and peppermint if you have any. Rub it into your temples. Plenty of water.

Of course lack of sleep will be making it worse.

Thanks @Gazza75

@Maggie i cant use lavender it makes my headaches worse. But I can use other oils. I think I have peppermint I will see if I can find it.

I’m about to go fir my walk. I need some fresh air.

Back later.

@BlueBay, my sister , I get the same responds

I ask the doctor about theses aches and pains in he joints -- and the doctor " well you do have kidney disease " (thank you )

hope you headache goes away xoxo

@Shaz51 💜💜♥️♥️🌼🌼☕

It’s 4.30 and I can’t sleep agsin!!!

i had a horrible horrible dream last night. It was about my dad taking his own life. The look on his face before he dud it was terrible. A scary look.

This has shaken me up.

I’m sure you all know how close I am to my dad and how much he means to me. Especially the two times that my parents didn’t talk to me. I struggled hugely with thst.

@Gazza75 @Shaz51 @Maggie @MDT @Owlunar

@BlueBay 💕💜💕

Hope your doing okay today @BlueBay .

Really sorry about your dreams and ongoing troubles with sleep.

Not sure if you are working today, but, I hope it goes smoothly if you are.

Keep up your walking.

It's really nice to hear how well you have taken to it 🙂

Hi @BlueBay

I know you get angry with your doctor sometimes but I am also aware of the problems concerning some kinds of medication - I can't get any sleeping tablets either because of the medication I take and I think it's fair enough

It's okay to be angry with the system sometimes - I understand - when you can't sleep it is hard to deal with the situation and not getting something as easy as some tablets to make it better seems unreasonable - this is one reason I hate the Sleep Police - I would rather read than try and relax - I hear you - it is frustrating

I know the dreams you have sometimes are distressing - this time it's about a fear of your father dying - I was close to my father and like you there were times when my mother was having one of her classic grudges when I didn't see Dad - I understand how you feel

You have a lot on your mind right now - too much really - and you do give yourself a hard time trying to deal with everything - it's a pity you have to carry so much on your own - you are the major driver holding a family of adults together - we think you are pretty good at it from where we stand - if you could see how well you do everything too it would make things easier for you.

But I know that's hard

Try and take things easy when you can - maybe you can find time to yourself over the weekend - all the best

Dec

thank you @Gazza75

hugs my sister @BlueBay

Hi @Shaz51 @Owlunar @Gazza75 @Maggie @MDT and others following

this morning I went on my 50 min walk. It was very fresh but nice. Just the feel of the cold air in my face was beautiful.

Wirk 10-2 busy which was good.

Dietitan appt after wirk. By then I was exhausted felt crap and all I wanted to do was cry.

We talked about my eating and he was really happy with my walking. He said I don’t see my little progress as a positive. He said I see it as “just ok”.

We discussed the scales and he said he will weigh me but he still thinks that’s not important.

He could see I was struggling emotionally. I told him that I felt I was been judged by him if I eat too much. He was glad I told him as I was been very honest.

He would like me to try to eat one small piece of chocolate and let it melt in my mouth. To actually taste the flavour. Then I will write down how I felt doing that.

I also mentioned thst I feel lost without the scales. He agreed that this is difficult for me as it’s been a very long time habit for me. But he said this feeling will subside.

With reg to not sleeping - he suggested a sleep diary. He said just write what’s in my mind. And then go bsvk to sleep.

The dietitian said to me to just deal with one day at a time.

Im exhausted. Glad it’s friday.

I’m now feeling very deflated. I feel thst my expectations in my weight journey isn’t progressing as I think it should. It’s too slow. I’m sngry at myself.

This is a month now that I’m walking daily. I’m think it’s ok but find it very hard to say fantastic or excellent or great. It’s just ok.