creative_writerSenior Contributor
I can’t find peace
I guess I’m used to living on the edge 😔
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I can’t find peace
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tymeModerator
Re: I can’t find peace
Good night. We'll chat over the weekend. @creative_writer
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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I wish I could run away from my mind, it's not going to good places. I don't even know what is wrong with me, what I know is, it's been building up for quite a while. My mind is chaotic, I don't even know how I feel, all I know is what I want to do, I don't know if I can resist these urges any longer
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tymeModerator
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Hey @creative_writer ,
Pick up the phone and speak to someone. That time of distraction means you have to wait.
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Then reassess the urges after.
You can do it.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@tyme, maybe I'll contact a helpline later. I couldn't help myself but do it again, I'm okay though. This just shows the importance of me getting out of the house. I hope the next placement works out and it's a supportive environment, I don't think I can handle lots of time alone at home working through more coursework.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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I've reached out for support, the pain won't stop, it's strange how I am still having urges after giving in. Now I am also thinking about worse things too. I wish I knew what was wrong with me, it doesn't usually get this bad, something flipped in my last weekend and it's only getting worse, and I'm not even sure what, I can't think, I can't breathe, I can't do anything. I rather not be here than live this f***ing life. I am safe for right now
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tymeModerator
Re: I can’t find peace
Hey @creative_writer ,
I'm glad to hear you have reached out for support. At least that bought you some space.
I hope you find something to distract yourself with tonight. Focus on your achievements, and look at your progress.
If you have to, reach out again.
Hugs
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@tyme, I am so agitated, this is not good. Looking back, it's been building up over the last week and not sure why (it started before placement drama). Now it's worse, I should've recognised the early warning signs. My thoughts are racing, I can't slow down. Too energised for my own good, why does this keep happening to me? No wonder I can't concentrate
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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How can you stop racing thoughts?
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Captain24Senior Contributor
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I had a counsellor who once told me to try and speak them out loud @creative_writer. Apparently it’s to try and defuse them.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Captain24, that’s a helpful technique to know, thank you for sharing. I sure hope things settle, I might need a PRN tonight, things have been very rough and also worried that things will escalate if I don’t sleep well
